Yesterday i had watch a TVB show call 溏心風暴之家好月圓....（so touch...haha..keep bother my friends to watch..REALLY NICE!!!!.Anyway , my point i s after watch the movie.i learned something ..that make me feel confuse with myself now...Is that correct that the thing that i always ask for?...like friendship...based on the comment that Yan Zheng advice me i guess..it didn't really make me feel better..(sorry jek)
I have think the question for whole night...I still cant get an answer..A answer that can make me comfortable or confirm myself...What i WANT will turn be the question now...WHAT IS WANT?WHAT IT IS???..friendship?relationship with my family members??NGEk...NGEk...wrong...cause dont even know what i want...confuse is the word for this moment...
For an example..one of my friends going or confirm to make a party to celebrate his birthday although that 'fatter' say not..(wajaja..an zheng dun angry call u fatter a...i also fat la...my fault)..
Back to the point...i'm not sure i want yo go or not?...Yes..i 100% want to go...but on the other hand...something block me or disagree me to go...what it is?
I remember i have go to a place where is full with people and those guys.erm...i know them they know me...Anywhere ..i remember the event, the process and the feel when i at there..being alone?erm..more accurately to say is being isolated from those guys and myself....It is not a feel where i think many people experience before....erm...i forgot how am i pass my time at that time..
What i consider now is ....will i being isolated again?ya..i know every people will say that i have to go through it..and i know i should do it by myself...just...nothing...KEK KOK WAH!!!!U CAN DO IT!!!!!GO GO GO..
So SORRY TO YAN ZHENG A...TT...give me few day....few hours........
