Just finished reading friends blog...dunno is because having the sad song effect when i reading the blog or what..now just a bit down...which i prefer also..haha..i dunno is the one that my friends blog saying that :"i don't have any best friend or good friend but just friends."...erm..cause if i do say so..maybe i need to specifik it..did i really don't have good friends?maybe i should say,i do treat some of my friends better than other...(is that call good friends)...i dunno how u all justified friends as i have say in the last post blog..
I can imagine if one day later i have no friends...i very lonely..sad....just all bad assumption ....hence..i scared ..scared from out of friends...scared from boykot from friends...if i want me to judge myself...i do change after start form 6 life..why?i dunno...i just remember how i treat my friends when i'm form 5 and below and now..it is totally different way....(very different keh?)...
I'm someone who scared to live lonely...(i love alone but i hate lonely)....I do..scared and imagine that my friends have back stab me from behind or leave me away...I do try my best to be friends with all people around me..(some don't..><.)..
I know i shouldn't always demand for something that shouldn't i ask for or i didn't reach the level where i can demand something.But i'm like "it" where we wish ..or hope we can be important for others...After the 2nd MUET result i start to learn realistic.. just,sometimes.. realistic can't help us to explain all the situation..or help us to handle some situation..now,i'm trying to be more realistic..wish i can be able to learn it fast.
Friends...meaningful or meaningless..is still an unknown for me.. Good friends..do i have or do i don't..is also an unknown for me..Best friends ..should i ask for it or not?tired from guessing ..tired from guessing something is unknown ...maybe i should learn...learn that something not belongs to me..no matter how i fight also wont get...let it go...let it pass...like wind...it exist..we can feel sometimes we can touch....but wind is something i can't catch...something i enable to catch(maybe someone can)...so..i need to let the wind go,then i can feel the exist of the wind..like how i should let my worried go also..?maybe~~~~~
