A normal day~~~

Today is 28/9/2008..now is 5.49pm.

Finally my trial exam have over and waiting for the STPM T_T..put aside the sad thing 1st..let see what happy event have happen..Start from today,just finished take bath , wash my car , have make some exercise..but only jump about 500 time..I have gone my energy..too bad.(SAD)

Yesterday me and my friends which is siew ling , yan zheng , man soon , and sze chi went to midvalley to buy present for the birthday boy------>chin fai.hehe..Having a dinner celebration with 14 ppl in cheras-calabria..Although that is not the place i prefer but something have happen because my word so i cant do anything...

Erm,actually..i dont have any mood recently or more accurate is i didn't gain any new philosophy..><...just a normal person being a normal life...not much to say or feel...just my friends yan zheng seems like down...erm, according to the research me and my friends have done on him,the result is he having pressure cause exam and some personnel problem where we cant invistigate and get the answer..haha
Wish that he can faster 'cure' from the pressure..

I think i will going to say how am i look about the birthday boy--->Lee Chin Fai.. or chinny..haha..About him,let me recall back my memory..i think i know or i see him since primary school..start talking or chat is when we 2 also form 6 and in same class..(>.<)According to the information i have is we tuisyen in a same place when we are primary school but i don't remember..hehe..SO bad me..

He is also a clever student in the class...like siew ling and yan zheng..i'm excepter
T_T..He physcal apperance is tall , having hair stye like a 1980 person..cause he just wake up as he give the reason why he hair big..haha..About mentally, i think he is kayu..haha..cause he didnt show his expression that make me quite understand-less about him..

About me and he,erm..i think is the joke that i have make on him..dunno he forgive me already or still angry with me..cause i have a playfull hearth then play he and siew ling together that make me feel guilty and sorry to him...

Once i always play joke on him and started to decrease to 1 power to 0..Cause i think i have really make him mad and always i think i have play over the safety line.
Really nothing to say ..cause..nothing..

Just want to end my blog with a wish that god will bless him to get the good result as he want in the STPM and hope that yan zheng will be ok back.

Time end:6.11.1 pm

PSPS...now is 6.30..suddenly remember something have to write...I DIDNT FALL IN LOVE WITH ANY GIRL NOW!!!!!!I DIDNT AND DONT WANT FALL IN LOVE to anyone..plz..let me go..
You all senser have problem...She is not my cup of tea and i wont have any tea in this life..!!!!forgive me if i say too rude but that how am i feel at that time not now...so..just let me go...walk away..2 month left only...let me feel that all the moment i in form 6 is happy memory not sad..(although many bad thing have appen already also)..><

DAY OF SAD AND DOWN MODE....

Today is 19/9..now is 10.pm.just back from physics tuisyen.

Today,i'm in the down mode..many unwanted and unwishes thing happen..

My car have send to shop to repair and can get back by 2moro...and need RM450...so expensive...Since my parents didn't scold me but i just don't know why i'm still so down...to act for them to see? HOnestly,i don't know..maybe is and maybe not...But when know that the repair fix is cost Rm450..it almost 1 week of the money the my father earn..

Although i didn't go out to work with my father work as many as my brother do..but i know that my father work is quite a tough work..He need to use energy and etc to earn the money..but i just use 1 week of the money he earn just in 1 repair car work.

SOmemore,i just get my car not more than 1 years and i had make a such huge mistake and destroyed..somehow my heart not forgive myself..just keep blame me..why didn't watch carefull or why didn't take other safe road..WHY???!!!!!

2nd thing that make me in down mode cause 1 of my form 6 friends will leave~~~~..the leave in here means that she going oversea to study...and might not join us for the end years pangkor trip..sad..A feel that all will leave soon and i will leave behind all this..But,i'm happy if she study oversea 2..can be proud for her i guest?

About her,erm...the 1st thing i know is got 4 girl join our class and 3 of them is came from convent..and she is one of them---Lee Siew Ling...My friends tell me that she is so beautiful..haha..at first i didn't see so..(>.<)..and my friends is female. somemore i think she is the ugly in our class that time(sorry a,siew ling,haha)

But with the help of time,after a period of knowing each other..she is a nice person..somemore she is a playfull person although she keep say that se is silent student in converm..now i have so many yellow thing in my head also "help" by her..>.< ..i'm so good in blaming people..Weeee~~~~~

About she..Fall in love to someone clever..and she is so yellow..always look for muscle guys..no idea how she can survive in the convent cause she can't see boy at there..

And she is helpfull for me cause when i still can't drive yet she is the one and part of the person who drive me go to tuisyen , play and "wet"..haha..then when i have my car is my pay back time to her...>.<..She gave me the same feeling with YAn zheng..funny, cherrup the class , be the one to let us gossip..haha..and she is the one i didn't see her angry before..

Wish that she can fly to the place she want to go and have her dream husband in the future...wish that she will tell me when is her flight..i want go to see her cry..haha.( i think i will cry 2..so, siew ling if u see this blog ,tell me when is u flight then we can cry together in the airplane....can feel and imagine what will happen after u leave..but..old word,human will change..we will and need to meet out faith..)

KEK KOK WAH>.<..u also be happy back soon ba^^

BAD DAY!!!STORM???

Today is 18/9...finished my physics paper 2..aikz..no matter how night am i study..the question stil i cant get the correct..no in the correct orientation..><

Today start with curious..cause after the salah faham and the aplogy..then is the 1st day to see my frends react...erm,.i think he seems like abit different at 1st..i means when we at the hall.he not so talkactive compare to last time..maybe not enough sleep cause have to study physics...

Then when in the class.aikz,can't express..cause the classroom is so silent..perhaps all wish to do the best shot fot the physics..Anyway,he can say got talk after toilet trip i guest..maybe now for me is a sensitive time..so he and other reaction will be ..how to say?ya..connected..But..wish he can be really happy and show the smile(evil or angel as soon as possible).

Me and my friends decided to go eat sup pedas at SG.CHUA cause there are not enough space to eat at ABC..then, my bad luck is start..i have a car crash..>< KANASAI...all because i'm skilless and the taxi fault..how can he/she park his/her taxi in there..!!!!that's not a place to park..anyway,that is malaysia driver culture and tradition..

Then i have to surrender to my parents..call my mom and be a mangsa in this tragetic(and i'm really a mangsa)..but the total price to fix back my door is 450..somemore cause myvi steel is bad quality..if it need use mangkat on in..then after a period of time it will show black dot..so hurt!!!!!!then i ask my parents how much it cost for a new door..haha..maybe i can change new door if it is not expensive..

But now..damn down e..!!!no energy to study i guest..(lazy..hehe)..just wish it can faster "walk" away..T_T..

Already 9.30pm..i guest i need study and stop...wish my spirit back~~~~~~~

Sorry to MY friends...Sorry

Today is 17/9,now is 12.04 am..just finished watched Ghost whispers and Las Veges... The main chracter in the Las veges have such a good body figure...aikz,if i have such a good body figure i no need so worry about the Pangkor trip already..haha

The main purpose i wrte the blog is because want to say sorry to someone i have hurt yesterday..my friends-------Wong Yan Zheng..Just now when read his blog only found out the reason he feel sad today at school...so bad me...The reason he is unhappy cause me and other friends play a fool on him and make him feel uncomfortable...

Erm,some how i can understand his situation when he say he need to lough in front of us altough he not feeling ok with the way we talk..and he express himself as a clown..what can i say is just sorry and very sorry but no other...

I have no idea it might hurt him and make him uncomfortable ...cause he always lough like mad with us and play joke with us..About him..i remember the 1st time we meet..is in the lower6 "gathering"..he and his friends are come from other school which is not yu hua..when we introduce ourself..i though their name is funny..cause he say my name is wong yan zheng..我人精 turn to the word 我是人精is the word i heard..haha

I want to say that i'm not a good student in the class and the form 6..is physics class need to category in to lame class and good class i will put into the lame class..><..so,it is quite a miracle for me that i will or can be friends with him and other excellent student..

He is someone i think is quite hardworking(doing maths)..exam result not bad..(wish he get the mark that he always want)..kaunseler for me(haha..i'm someone have mentally problem)..and my lost belly drum teacher..T_Y..such a bad news for him having a lazy “student” like like me..

Now when want to write about him, i wonder why me and other friends like to play about him.we help him "bath" when we go toilet and play match-maker on him with other girl..somehow..i think he be the item for us to play..but..all came under one reason cause he is just too nice（easy to bully..WAKAKA)

Today is the 1st day i think i see he show unhappy mode..As a friends..i just wish i already know what is the problem at that moment..but.i'm such a failer to friendship..Sometimes i unpurposly hurt friends with out i know..Dam....

He is the part if bring the happyness to our class...sending us song...talking nonsense..and etc..not here to bombastic him and promote him to you but maybe this is how i feel now and how sorry i am for making him having a unhappy event in 16/9/2008..

I just want to say sorry to him again...Wish that he always happy and show his kiling smile to all of us(evil smile also)..ANd i swear i wont hurt u(try mybest) and i wont say u about moon again...SORYY AND HAPPY FOREVER..V-POWER on u for the exam..dun worry the money..i help u pay..haha

Moon cake festival...

Today is 14/9..now is 9.07 pm..using my brother laptop to write blog..1st experience^^

Today is Moon Cake Festival..too bad is now outside my house is raining...can't play Tanglung or candle.But,if not raining , i also can't play cause 2moro is my exam and the major reason is no one will play with me..haha(T_T)

Just back from dinner, see my neighbour is playing the tanglung and candle also of course...just..recall back some memory...the 1st moon cake festival i have celebrate in this new house..that day, i'm still only a form 1 or 2 student...still qualified to play tanglung, i guest...don't know start from when, i found out that my brother are not enjoying the candle and tanglung game more...or should say is he prefer to join his friends...

Ya, i know that every people change...every one will find their own world one day...At that time if i'm not wrong is form 3 , i didn't ask my brother to play tanglung with me...somehow i need to learn to let go..let something go..learn to grow up and learn that i'm not qualified for this game...

When i watch my neighbour , i something like recall one plan..the 1st moon cake festival i had celebrate in this new house..the plan is me and my brother will corporate to "light" up the pagar that opposite my house..haha..of course..the plan fail...i don't remember the reason..

Moon cake festival have bring back me many sweet and unwanted event...I still remember the moment that me and my family members still live in the old house which is rumah teres..me and mt bro sleep in the front room...event time after we finished play candle , my mom will order us to go take bath...at night, me and my bro will not sleep yet and we will watch the candle trough the window..looking the "fire" gone.but most of the time we cant wait until that moment and we will fall in sleep..><

Childhood is a really fantastic time,isn't?..growing up force us to face and talking something we wont like to deal with...Bur this is life and we have to face it..too bad..

Now, today is moon cake festival, my house only left me ..brother go to find his friends, parents go to celebrate friends child marry..me?need to face the book .haha.
Start from today morning until now..i watch the movie that my brother bring T_T...but have study for a period of time also..><

Already 9.28 pm..need to stop then...ERM...WISH ALL MY FRIENDS ENJOY THE MOON CAKE FESTIVAL^^gogogo

HEADING TO EXAM......

Today is 13/9..1.54 pm..just finished my luck..need to rest awhile before start study..Next Monday start the exam .start with PA 2...wish i can get great mark..but is impossible ..haha..T_T

Start from last week...i start to "exercise'..haha..cause want to lost my belly drum before go to Pangkor trip for the end years trip.Cause my friends i means male and boy all don't have belly drum..T_T..my one is huge big..KA NA SAI..><..

My exercise adviser is my friends---yan zheng..haha..Erm..so far my weight didn't drop..but my purpose is not lost weight just want lost my belly drum..wish i can lost it before the Pangkor trip..GAM BA TEH^^

Erm..yesterday my whole class only have 6 student attend..WAA..shock,isn't?but total only 18 in the classroom..so no surprises..>.< All boy...ok,only me...and some also..quite crazy..no teacher , less people, haha..scream for nothing that moment..tell u,it is form 6 student stress!!!!!

No idea why the gosip between me and the girl that i have mention in the previous blog is BACK..but..not back actually ..cause last Monday , when i go for my MATHS tuisyen...she and some friends join out class and she sit beside me.Then , my reaction is "run" away from her...bad boy,isn't?

Then some of my friends i shouldn't treat her so..but..i don't know how and why, just when i saw her, my brain have release hormon that i should stay away from her.. ><.Some of my friends have ask me why i didn't try to dating with her or accept her to be my lover..The major reason is i don't have the feel of course...and i have say to myself i won't dating with girl or marry..haha

But..recently i have meet back my old female friends..haha..After the 1st time i meet her back in MCD..then in around this 2 week i keep saw her..><..(SHY).Quite happy..haha..^^She still like that....how?don't know how to describe..

I think i have stop writing, cause already 2.11pm..time for me to face the book..WISH me good luck^^

LOVE?FAMILY?.....BREAK

Today is 6/9..1 more week is my trial exam ...start feel pressure and ..scare..

I think for today blog will no more "haha" word...I just finished pick up my mother from shop...she have a war with my father again....i don't remember what is the cause for the war last time but i do remember from Yan Zheng birthday until today..they at least have 6 war already..all happen..due to small matter

For me...i think is my father problem...don't know start from when my father will argue with my mother for a small thing..this time just because my mother didn't gosok my father back a war happen again...

Only because a word will also make my father in temple..sound nonsense,isn't?
unbelievable?then u should see by yourself..

This morning..a call make make me wake up..my mom call me to inform me that she didn't buy me breakfast and tell me that she fight with father again...not a shock event to make me wake up and fresh my brain...

I tired with this family already...fight for tiny thing..my friends say "they still you family'..yes they do..just sometimes i don't know how am i should react with this family...i love them..but sometimes i don't know how to love them that crashing my family...

In the way back to the home..my mom say that she tell father want to divorce... Honestly...really not surprises for me..cause last time when they have fight and i try to help my mother by begging my father..he tell me.."i will and want to divorce with u mother already"...have u all experience so?

Just now bathing..i tell myself i thing..if they dare to divorce..i will kill myself in front of them..i will make sure myself do so...make them guilty...honestly i don't know i dare to do or not..but i will make sure i will do so..when they sign..i jump from building or kill myself with gun..

That is the thing i should do,right?children born cause the love of they parents.. When the love is gone..children shouldn't appears in this world more,isn't?

I won't dating and marry in the rest of my life...i have tell my mother so..she say i'm nonsense..but.from what i see,love of my brother with his girlfriends already break..family?what happen with my family..loveless...Maybe i already don't have the spirit to marry and dating..from what i see ..from what i feel..lover and family..
i'm not dare to try it..

DIE..might be the stupid way but always be the choice for me ..GAMBATEH MY FRIENDS IN U ALL EXAM!!NO MATTER IS STPM or Trial exam..GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!