LOVE?FAMILY?.....BREAK

Today is 6/9..1 more week is my trial exam ...start feel pressure and ..scare..

I think for today blog will no more "haha" word...I just finished pick up my mother from shop...she have a war with my father again....i don't remember what is the cause for the war last time but i do remember from Yan Zheng birthday until today..they at least have 6 war already..all happen..due to small matter

For me...i think is my father problem...don't know start from when my father will argue with my mother for a small thing..this time just because my mother didn't gosok my father back a war happen again...

Only because a word will also make my father in temple..sound nonsense,isn't?
unbelievable?then u should see by yourself..

This morning..a call make make me wake up..my mom call me to inform me that she didn't buy me breakfast and tell me that she fight with father again...not a shock event to make me wake up and fresh my brain...

I tired with this family already...fight for tiny thing..my friends say "they still you family'..yes they do..just sometimes i don't know how am i should react with this family...i love them..but sometimes i don't know how to love them that crashing my family...

In the way back to the home..my mom say that she tell father want to divorce... Honestly...really not surprises for me..cause last time when they have fight and i try to help my mother by begging my father..he tell me.."i will and want to divorce with u mother already"...have u all experience so?

Just now bathing..i tell myself i thing..if they dare to divorce..i will kill myself in front of them..i will make sure myself do so...make them guilty...honestly i don't know i dare to do or not..but i will make sure i will do so..when they sign..i jump from building or kill myself with gun..

That is the thing i should do,right?children born cause the love of they parents.. When the love is gone..children shouldn't appears in this world more,isn't?

I won't dating and marry in the rest of my life...i have tell my mother so..she say i'm nonsense..but.from what i see,love of my brother with his girlfriends already break..family?what happen with my family..loveless...Maybe i already don't have the spirit to marry and dating..from what i see ..from what i feel..lover and family..
i'm not dare to try it..

DIE..might be the stupid way but always be the choice for me ..GAMBATEH MY FRIENDS IN U ALL EXAM!!NO MATTER IS STPM or Trial exam..GAMBATEH!!!!!!!!!!!!