Bonding brain >.<

Today is 29/9/2008..now is 2.38pm.

Today same like yesterday...normal life..wake up at 6.40 am cause have tuisyen and go to MCD to celebrate one of my friends birthday----->Cheah Pei Seen..

Somehow today i think i'm in the down mood..why?perhaps something happen that make me think or reconsider many thing..Every ppl know the means of leaving and gathering.. The happiest is the gathering and the sadness is leaving..i'm talking nonsense here..

NOw i listening to one of the AERON MOK song...lyrics like this.:"maybe i should give up then only i can near to u , maybe i didnt see u again then only u will remember me..~~"..This song somehow have describe my feel now...

Now i'm down cause i too stuborn to hold something..let it go might be a good way for me..see far and have new experience...i will not say why i down here cause it doesnt matter and for sure it is not because the girl and me problem...Just,i feel like i'm and will get forget for people around me..

I know i'm just only a guest to the earth,sooner or later i will leave this place.. ash to ash dust to dust..Maybe i hope i have change in this 2 years ,i means the life i study on form 6..actually i dont dare to show my despeated feel in the form 6 friends cause i scared later they will think bukan bukan again..

When something have hapen beyond our control..i dont know,just feel like not safe more?!!But every thing happen with surprices that make our life and world full with happy,sad, or many feel..I'm not dislike it but ..i dont know..i'm confuse..perhaps someone have use confuse ray on me..

Now my brain is stil all "bond" together..the tired feel return...As i of my friends say..sometimes alone is a nice thing..YA,i cant delined it...i love alone but i hate been forget and lonely..lonely feel also came with alone but i cant control to accpet alone only while kick away the lonely..><

Alone~~~i have do some thing by myself...alone!!!stay in home while whole family go out for play , one people go to take a dinner...one people do this do that...if u ask me what is the problem.?i dont know...but if u ask would u like someone join me..the answer will be yes(sometimes)..i'm not looking for a girl friends ..that someone can be make and female but i hope that someone can chat with me..

SOmetimes...i wonder how is my life when i'm old...I have see people about 30~40 years old having lunch alone..somehow, i feel it is weird and lonely..i have imagine that if i day later u have to pass the life like them,how am i turn to?After all , i'm just too afraid too leave behind..sometimes i say i didnt mind.but actually i do mind(sometimes)..dont know my friends have sense so or not?

I have say that i'm prefect lier,i wish that they cant sense it..then i can still be the prefect imej for them...

THat all for todayi think, already 3.03..waa..i use 30 min to finsihed 1 blog..hehe..
I will be happy^^(term and condition:try)