HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS

What is the problem to be sad?down?abnormalto a happy ownself as usual??could it be family?lovers?friends?or......just something and nothing?

Chinese New Years is coming and it will arrive in 4 day more....Recently i have recall something that have happen in the last years upon Chinese New Years....shall i share some here?..haha..

"POP"...what a crazy song><...which is sing by a group of nonsense and crazy fellow..build by..leader:fion..and members which is Yan Zheng , Siew Ling , Chin Fai, Man Soon and me not to forget and other too which i didn't write down here..Still can remember the way we present our song....do u guys still remember?...sing in hakka , and etc language..and sing wherever we are and we free...all the image and envirnoment in my brain...is in 1 word..FUNNY!!!!^^

Do u know that angpou package can make to a hat??..haha..I believe eventhough u know , u won't be so crazy to try it..but...last years, some of our classmate have decided to design the classroom to feel like CNY..then we start to prepare the angpou fish , angpou tanglung and etc...At last?..we didnt make it..cause i didn't bring the needle and "benang" to school...so , it is my fault?yea..it is..T.T.. Anyway..there are someone creative thinkinh people in our class and make the angpou tanglung we make into 1 hat and wear it...and who is the one????...hahahahaa..deng deng deng..it is ....WONG YAN ZHENG...WAHAHA....

Still remember during holiday for CNY..then u drive my brother car and fetch 2 of my friends to go out have fun....then at one moment..we decided to go Siew Ling house bai nian..then at the traffic light there..i almost hit a car cause my car turn back(that time i'm still newbie)....Lucky it didn't hit..haha

Sure there will be something happen and i didn't join....such as bai nian sessions that make by many guys...but i didn't join cause i don't know at 1st..but nevermind...let the pass be pass...~.~

Just suddenly feel like...do i really have enjoy and have such event in my life before?..haha....For this few days i have been suffer for 1 answer and 1 questions(dream)..Afraid to found and admit it?..ya.i do..afraid is the point here....trying to run and forget it after wake up..and it do stop appear in my dream for today.haha..lucky^^....

Like i sad before..maybe one day later i wil regret to the decisions i have make now...but..whatever it is....JUST WANT TO TELL U ALL
>>>>>>>HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS<<<<<

JOB..WORK..

Hai blogger...such a long time didn't write or add new post to you..

So far, the major topic in my mind now is job or work...erm....(study also important..
haha)..job....what can i say about it?...the TRIPRO.i cant join..cause parents and...whatever...the point is i didn't go to there work more..

so far i go....now i back to the starting point..like snake game...when I'm almost reach the 100..a stair 'bring' me back to the first place...sad?feel fail?..but now i just know i need to start to roll the dice and continue my journey...

So,what is my first step now?...let see..teacher?telesales?new era? or my bro job--typing?..

teacher..huh..then i really back to the started point..haha..i think u all know my means...YU HUA?.batu 11?...aaa....whatever..have job...i go..desperate to run from boring and doing nothing...~.~....Tomorrow i will go Yu Hua to confirm is there any place for me?..if no, there is no point for me to wait.i guess..

Telesales?..erm...have friends accompany..too bad...something tell me no need take it into list..sure can't or band by my parents...

New ERA?...be a librarian..Kah Wei suggest me go....at first i do think want to give a try...but, the newspaper still have so many bad news about it...don't know if i work at there..is there any reporter came and ask me question?..maybe can see my face in newspaper..then got any company see me and ask me to work for them....haha..dream

My bro job?...erm.let see.....1st i don't want to be my brother shadow...2nd..the job is really sien and the salary is not good....><..haha..but quiet free and can play game during work as long as u didn't kena catch..haha..somemore can take the company property like empty cd which my brother and his friends have done before..

overall...or now,i wish i can get teacher job...at least it can make me free and can 'visit' my friends...more easy and comfortable..but...my dream and what i want wont be so easy for me to get,isn't god?

nothing.....

Today is 2/1/2009..now is 7pm...

2008 already be the history of the earth....yet..the earth is getting sick and worst i guess..haha..><.

bother am i..the topic of the previous blog ..yes..the answer i have figure out..and i think i have to admit it too.I AM...never mind...haha..wish better get better...admit worst..be the worst..~.~

It is such a long time i didn't blog already....lazy is the point and no feel is the 2nd reason...><

What to say...ERm, let's talk about the celebration of 2009..It is..at 31/12/2008..the last day of the 2008....me and my friends have held a BBQ party at jay Yap house..At the morning...basketball program..evening--->shopping program...at night---->BBQ program..haha..full with activities...That's why I didn't send any Happy News Years message to all my friends...cause after back from the party..i'm damn tired and straight go meet MR.Zhao after take bath...

Aikz...there are so many food left , then me and siew ling keep "burn" the food such as fishballl, sotong ball ,prawn ball , chicken wing and hotdog..haha...After that , me , siew ling , jia yiing and fion go ta take a walk at Jay Yap taman...then when we reach the highway....we can see firework that held at BEACH CAFE.....HAPPY NEW YEARS...

Back to the 'toy land' opposite Jay Yap house..haha...our big kids is trying to do vandalisme on those gadget...haha..sometimes...in our deep down heart...we are still kid ...haha..did i?anyway...hope the neighbour didn't angry for making sound pollution.

While all the people is buzy sending message to their friends...I lying down at somewhere and look to the sky...bad thing is there are not moon but it do have some star to accompany me..make me feel more..good?..WAHAHA.on the spot...i have recall my memory and a funny picture have come to my mind...A unforgettable event..

About cleaning house...haha..FINALLY!!!!....BUAHAHAHAHHA.finished..><...yesterday wake up and start to work..clean the wall, take out the item clean and put it back...After a long term fight and haha...i win^^..

BOTHER....am i?

Today is 23/12..now is 11.47 pm...

Actually there are nothing much i want to say or tell...waiting the Garena to update finished then i will go to sleep...haha..but..suddenly feel like blogging then just press a few button and start move my finger..><

Today me , Yan Zheng and Siew ling have go to JPN to renew our IC..cause already old than 18 years old and it is necessary for us to renew..Then we go eat breakfast and play bowling game..haha...me and Yan Zheng is mad...he have play 12 game and me have play 10 game cause later on Mui Fun join us and i give her the last 2 game ..of course,she got pay me back the money..haha

Just now..someone have ask me why people so scared bothering others(something sound like that..)..erm,i have answer the question by saying that cause they scared the people they bothering will feel sick of them..haha..how accurate the answer it is..><..but we didn't discuss about the topic and we have something like change the topic..haha.

Just suddenly feel like say more about the topic..why?erm,not a odd and unfamiliar question for me....I think i have ask and been ask by my other friends...Like the blog have say at the previous blog,i'm going to keep at distant with someone....how much i make it?i guess..not even 1 %..haha...just too much thing that i wish i can be better or close as friends to him..Somehow..the promise is not success..bad?..perhaps..

How much i scared of bothering people?..Just,i will worry that one day later someone will not like to be friends to me cause i'm too "fan" to him/her...Although someone told me that friends can not be calculate at that way..but, i have see some case either myself too when i'm not love someone and the guys is keep looking for me ...the feel of push him/her away always grow in my mind...and i will hide it and be usual...

No idea start from when.maybe when i'm about form 1..i scared that i have make someone have this kind of feeling cause me and it is not fun or ok...I dare to say i'm not feel bad get bother by someone i know or i want be close with nor i will sad if they are not bother me and i'm willing to get bother by other which is not in my "black list"...I'm not saying i'm any kind person who willing to sacrifice myself .just.happy when know that I'm not alone or lonely

Like i say..maybe i love alone but i hate lonely..how ridiculous it is?haha...that's me..KEK KOK WAH...nonsense person..

About change..i means changing my mentally or though..haha...funny when i found that I'm that kind of person have "problem"..so far i though my mother is the only one say that i'm but today..there are other one support my mother...erm..maybe i can save it for next blog when the feeling get stronger and i'm not as sleepy as i'm now..haha.

Just one more thing...Merry Christmas in less than 24 hours..haha..happy to see a gang of friends in same place again...wish it can funny , crazy and happy moment in my life time...THX for someone who give me advice and haha..i'm not ready..><

Some Stuff....

Today is 22/12/2008...3.38pm...wait to watch ataschinci..><

it have been long time that i didn't blog ..or i didn't blog at this blog..><..(maybe u get my point..)...

let review of the recently event or trip or plan i have do....After back from Pangkor trip...erm, I think the next activities i have do is go out with my friends with my friends which is Bryan Kong and William Chong To KLCC..Somehow , I'm not that enjoy on the trip...Going to KLCC is Brayn Kong idea..cause he want to buy and he did buy a watlet at GUCCI!!!!erm..you can imagine or predict how much the watlet cost...

Still can remember the day I meet Bryan Kong at Kajang train Station..For me , he is "over-dresses"...Darn, he wear black spec which is not suitable for the environment..look weird.>..<..Rich people world is a pplace i will and cant either don;t want to "follow".

Anyway..i have go to Kinokumiya for the twilight series book..but..T.T..all sold out..with finished 1 movie and shop at a quite expensive cloth shop then we back to Kajang..erm..not here to show-off or anything but..haha..he is "increase" his taste EXPENSIVELY

Erm, I think about last Thursday , me and my friends which is Yan Zheng , Chin Fai , Man Soon , Ming Han , Siew Ling, Mui Fun , Kah Wei and Yoke Xin have go to Tripo Tech at Puchong to interview and get a part time job..something have happen and settle...haha.><

Then the event for today and for me is a "crazy" thing which is playing basketball at Batu11 with my form 6 friends who are..Yan Zheng , Yan Zheng brother , Chin Fai , Kee Sheng , Ah Teoh and Kah Wei....erm..why i say it is crazy thing?..Sport..this word is familiar and "unfriednsly" for me...I have already didn't touch any type of sport for about 7 years..wahaha.><

I can say with honest that when I'm in primary school..i quite know how to play ..for sure I'm not means that i'm professional or damn geng...but i think is better than now..once i know how to shot the basketball or swimming ..but now...i know how to make air-ball and drown><...I don't remember why i dislike it or give up the sport when I'm in the secondary school or get "older".All the skill that i have learn and know have gone in no way..T.T

I still can remember last night when i invited Ah Teoh to play basketball..he have ask me for 3 times who is calling him although i have told him that i'm Kek KOK WAH..Therefore it can be easily see that in all people brain i'm the sporty guys..><..haha..

But.I think I'm not going or learned how to shot the ball for now..haha..When Yan Zheng is teaching Chin fai and Kah Wei how to shot the ball better with changing the position and etc...I'm not that "semangat" to give me a try..why?erm...how to say.. just...i think i need time..time to fix something inside myself...haha
TIME....

Part time job~~~

Today is 15/12/2008....now is 8.07 p.m..
Just back from shopping with my friends at Mid-valley..cause i have to buy some cloth for the coming Chinese News Years and my job which high probability to become a part time teacher...
Hmmm...being a part time teacher is one of choice as a part time job but i didn't think i would need go so far and is alone guys..This story is because my mother have heard from her friends and insist me to go..Yesterday night i have just back from dinner and yam cha session and my friends then i want to tell them my plan for the part time job...i haven't given a chance to say what i want but my mother already come out the word that,"i want u become part time teacher", "i prefer u become part time teacher"...
I'm not given a second or chance to tell her and she keep say the same word when i'm going to start to tell her my plan...Then,maybe recently or whatever my temper just grow and control my character and leave their room without saying a word..
This morning i have wake up and we have make something like cool war..Until then i be the one who start to talk with her and the cool war end and i go out to shopping with my friends..Just now back from shopping and once i see her face..i have no idea why and how my temper again grow and i suddenly feel like angry about her..I want to know why my mother so love to control my life?..why she just can't believe about the choice i have make?
So long..without my brother help me..there will impossible that i can go out to play with my friends like today ...So far..what i want to do if fail at 1st and with my brother help it will more chance to success...
Just now watching TV and i suddenly think back that i'm not possible to change my job cause i have ask my friends that help me to ask a job that near at Kajang..But i recall the paper that i have sign when i ask to be temporary teacher..It stat that i need to tell the school one month early if i don't want to be teacher or whatever.. Maybe it sound blur for you who read now..but for sure i think i really need to be the only guys who work at that school in next January although i might have better offer in the coming day...
Back to some happen event..Yesterday i have enjoy with my dinner with my "family" again..haha..so happy that they have make a surprises to me..Thx to all of them.. THX^^..It such a pleasure and lucky to meet and be friends with you all.. Wish all the best to you all guys and sorry is the word i want to say to someone ...I really didn't say anything out..and i will apply my promise to myself that i have stat in the last blog..so...i don't know ..i think it is a better that i'm working alone too..
Can't let him go?..hmm...i think more sound like i will deep dead sad if need to say goodbye to him and others again in the coming day...告别伤心，思念开始。。。

A promise to myself

Today is 14/12/2008...3.26pm.
Today i'm really alone in my house..cause my parents have go to play with their friends early this morning...good news for me and for my parents..
Already back from pangkor trip for 3 day.I guess my feel wasn't that down as i feel that day...but it doesn't means i don't miss anymore..just like all people say..save it in the heart..><
Still looking for job now..wish can heard good news from chin fai but also scared for the job he can get for me cause is about computer and software...i'm noob to it..but.wish i can get job cause now is desperate to get job and money..><
Just now chatting with my friend who is study at Canada----->Tan Hyui Sxin..haha.. recently keep see her online..maybe now she is darn free cause her final exam is going to finished...
In the talk we have discuss about people attitude..hmm..maybe i should start like this..i think i'm too stick to someone..then i have ask some opinion about it..She tell me if someone is too stick to her .she might feel not comfortable and try to avoid from the people that stick with her..
For that moment..i think i'm in trouble.cause i think i'm too stick too someone.. Like she say.....although my heart might want to be friends with the one i care but i doesn't or i shouldn't make the other feel uncomfortable and vomit feel..
I have realize my problem once and maybe that time i'm pretend to be half blind person to the problem..but today and just now.i have make myself a conclusion...I need to be or set a distance i guess is the correct word to the one i stick too much..
Maybe i have really make him feel bad or like my friends say..vomit feel that he didn't tell me or how to me,..in other word..don't want to hurt me..So, i think i know what should i do and what shouldn't i do ..haha..
i write down just want to remind me .. to make me not to forget the thing i have say to myself..ME..scared bother people and scared people will angry and avoid from me but in fact what i do might or already make him feel sick toward me..
All is clear now and i think i have found a guide line...be happy kok wah.^^it is also for you own good..haha..^^..
P/S:for those who are prepare to enjoy dinner with me but i reject i feel so much sorry and only sorry is the word i want to say to you all..like i say just now..i sacred what have i say and do is bothering you all so for my view i think you all should be with yours parents..just that;s all..SORRY..