A promise to myself

Today is 14/12/2008...3.26pm.
Today i'm really alone in my house..cause my parents have go to play with their friends early this morning...good news for me and for my parents..
Already back from pangkor trip for 3 day.I guess my feel wasn't that down as i feel that day...but it doesn't means i don't miss anymore..just like all people say..save it in the heart..><
Still looking for job now..wish can heard good news from chin fai but also scared for the job he can get for me cause is about computer and software...i'm noob to it..but.wish i can get job cause now is desperate to get job and money..><
Just now chatting with my friend who is study at Canada----->Tan Hyui Sxin..haha.. recently keep see her online..maybe now she is darn free cause her final exam is going to finished...
In the talk we have discuss about people attitude..hmm..maybe i should start like this..i think i'm too stick to someone..then i have ask some opinion about it..She tell me if someone is too stick to her .she might feel not comfortable and try to avoid from the people that stick with her..
For that moment..i think i'm in trouble.cause i think i'm too stick too someone.. Like she say.....although my heart might want to be friends with the one i care but i doesn't or i shouldn't make the other feel uncomfortable and vomit feel..
I have realize my problem once and maybe that time i'm pretend to be half blind person to the problem..but today and just now.i have make myself a conclusion...I need to be or set a distance i guess is the correct word to the one i stick too much..
Maybe i have really make him feel bad or like my friends say..vomit feel that he didn't tell me or how to me,..in other word..don't want to hurt me..So, i think i know what should i do and what shouldn't i do ..haha..
i write down just want to remind me .. to make me not to forget the thing i have say to myself..ME..scared bother people and scared people will angry and avoid from me but in fact what i do might or already make him feel sick toward me..
All is clear now and i think i have found a guide line...be happy kok wah.^^it is also for you own good..haha..^^..
P/S:for those who are prepare to enjoy dinner with me but i reject i feel so much sorry and only sorry is the word i want to say to you all..like i say just now..i sacred what have i say and do is bothering you all so for my view i think you all should be with yours parents..just that;s all..SORRY..