"FAMILY" trip..~.~

Today is 12/12/2008..time now is 9.57 at the morning...everything seems already have to be the "past tense"...but my feel is still the same as yesterday night...perhaps it will be better later or in the future..Here is something i have write in a paper because i cant sleep by keep thinking about it and i don't want to lost the feel and my memory when wake up 2moro..
Today is 11/12/2008..now is 11.59p,...Now i feel like i am in the pening laut situation====pening.~.~There are 1 word to describe my felling now------>confuse..haha ..sound weird..><
I still remember the process. the sweet memory, the funny moment, the desperated situation and etc. Me and my friends have gather in the Kajang Bus Station before go to Pudu..i have to wake up at 4.30 in the morning cause need to reach the bus station before 6 am...T have to say very thank you to Siew ling because fetch me(aligator.^^). But we have 1 "VIP" in our group===>Lee Chin Fai..haha..He reach the bus station at 6.15...but it doesn't matter cause all the thing is still follow the schedule..
We reach the Pudu bus station and meet the friends which live in Cheras and already waiting us at a nearby KFC...Total people 15..boy team:me , Yan Zheng,Chin Fai , Man Soon , Kee Sheng , Ah Teoh , MIng Han and Xiau Sa..girl team: Siew ling, Sze Chi , Ling Shi , Kah Wei(sifu) , Yoke Xin (sipak) , Mei Yan and Pei Seen..On the journey to the Pangkor perlabuhan...my friends have enjoy them by "gamble" and sleep..some of the friends have decided to take those funny sleeping pose..haha..and i enjoy the 4 hrs trip by listen to music and enjoy the view outside the window.. .i'm so happy that i sit in bus cause it such a long time i didn't use the bus already..
Once reach the Pangkor, we go to the Coral Bar...2 apartment for 15 people of us..
Overall, our Pangkor trip is full with the event that playing water , walk at the beach , feel the softness of the sand , the smell of the sea , the force of the winf , and many many else..and the important event is the "cor dai di" time for boy when have free time and the shopping hours for the girl~.~
Those girl are crazy for shopping..><..They can shopping in a same shop for 4 time and above...mad already they(they will kill me later...)But that is the "kung FU" of the girl inherit with which i or much of the male people cant learn that prefect..The 1st thing all guys do is swim in the sea and sand ball to throw the innosence guys like me...but i'm the one who keep their wallet and their "harta"..DONT TRY TO PLAY WITH ME....HOHOHOHHOH
The other thing will be i finally have touch the sea...Is is my 1st time to "swim" in the sea..and the water is so so so so "SIEN"... The poor thing is i get "bully" by the boy and girl..T.T..I think i will drown for one moment but lucky that i'm still survive and typing the blog now and here....haha
The 3 day 2 night trip at Pangkor ...I think i'm the most troublesome people..why?.I can easily lost my wallet , sandals , and my mobile phone..until a level where i'm not dare to keep the door key in my bag..><
The 1st day at night...i have a long night talk with Yan Zheng...cause that day at night...we all 14 people(beside xiau sa cause he need to sleep)have gather and talk ghost story...that make the girl afraid and have 3 boys decided to "protect" them by sleep at their room...but i don't know how much it work but for sure is Ah Teoh have turn to become their "father" after that night...and me and Yan Zheng have spend 2 hrs and 30 minute to talking session..
Then the 2nd day night ..we all decided to rent bicycle and take a "walk" in the Pangkor..An i have do a wrong thing by express my word with more rough feel..It make me feel bad cause i should be enjoy the process..~~~After the bicycle..we all have buy 4 bottle of beer and head to the beach that what have also done in the 1st night at Pangkor...Drinking the Beer and enjoy the song sing by all and the guitar-man----->JAY YAP(YAP MING HAN)...hohohoh.it is a sweet moment...All people sound enjoying the moment and then me and some friends "sleep" in the sand and enjoy the moon light..For a period of time me and kah wei (my sifu)..sleep at yan zheng body to enjoy and feel funny..haha.
1 amazing thing is ..when we back from cycling..the pedal of the yan Zheng bike have have broke and he have to run back for a far distant and and taking his bike as well.How well done is his "cell of sukan" in his body.~.~..then at 12 am..when back to the apartment and all gather in the girl room..playing card game and punish the loser..~.~..Yan Zheng is poor guys which like the only 1 guys get punish..of course me also kena .T.T.but is sound terrible for Yan Zheng ..seems like he want to get punish purposly. Are you,Yan Zheng? ...
Now my feel is more to sad and sleepy.. The happy moment have came to the end or more exactly is our trip and the friendship is started decrease..Although some have say FRIENDS FOREVER...i know what it means , how it work , and the % of success....like the Brighton have say in the Nanny show before..:"of course you will remember us for a while..after u have have u own children.You will start to decrease to see us and at last you will forget about us."..What the Brighton say is equal as what i think..Now or today..we might dare to say that we are friends forever...but the time and years came and go..are we still able to say the same thing like today?are will still remember each other?are we?
Although some play a joke that they will go to my house and "pon" me for fun...It sound funny and happy for me..but ,the feel is different ..the fell that we study at the school every day..and the feel we like just looking and pass away...it make me feel sad, forgotten , and like a puzzle lost a piece to finished it...It just something that it wouldn't as good as it was...
The 3day 2 night at Pangkor is nice and cool for me..With the Happy force and unexpected event..Now i can't sleep..Back to a room where i sleep ...it feel a bit lost..no more yellow light on the wall...no more people beside me to sleep ....It is what call as LIFE.i need to deal with it , understand it..I think i can suite myself again in this room again sooner or later but.i don't and can't accept the way i need to deal with it..KEK KOK WAH...WAKE UP AAA!!!!!YOU ARE NO LONGER A CHILDREN!!!!!..no more~~~~
Maybe it is due to it is the 1st time i have a trip with my friends with overnight..i need to grow up..no need to accept myself but make sure i live in the old type life style as soon as possible..don't stuck in the pass..
I don't know what to say more..Don't exactly what should i think..I remember at the KFC just now for dinner...Honestly, i really feel like going to break at that moment..i can feel my tears already arounf the corner to fall down..just that nearly but i managed to avoid it and don't want to let people see i'm that weak,,
Although for some part..this trip wasn't as i expected(cause my mission have fail..)but it is happy event..It always live in my memory, my computer, my blog..Just wish i wouldn't forget those event and memory...The 1 and 1/2 years of form 6 life have finally came to the end...i wish i can stay back at that time with them ...changing myself at lower 6 with more involve with them.but..back to the word..GROW and be mature now..
What a release after write down all the thing down...brain is so empty and enable myself to sleep better later..I'm now so much relutant to let me and my friends "go"..to become a pass tense not the future or present tense...But , it is something beyond what i can do or what i can try to do.This trip is full with memory...the voice and laughter we have make in the ship...the "knock" of my head to the van taxi..For me, it is more likely a family rather a end years school trip...REALLY!!.maybe cause it is my 1st time experience and there are some people i really wish will not get forgot by them (not girl and boy those love feel).It is 1st time i feel like the form 6 i study is like a big community rather than many group ..of course there are some people that i didn't familiar with..but..is is more likely a big , huge family...(and i want be small brother so can avoid doing heavy job..haha..)..
It feel so bad and sad cause need to leave them with a simple bye bye..feel so..relunctant ..It broke my heart and make me want to cry again now...but as i say..it is life..i need to grow and deal with it..learn to be grow and move on...GAMBATEH and WISH ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK TO THE BEST FAMILY I HAVE EVER , NEVER HAVE BEFORE..
This is how i feel last night...what i have write in paper to make my self empty and sleepy...tonight i need to fight to sleep lonely and the worst case is this Sunday cause my family go out play and i'm the only one in the house...No idea At night that day m i will be able to close my eyes or not..brainless..
Just now i go out with my mom for bank thing ...just thin back the lost of the people...my tears is pop out but it doesn't come out..thanks to the air-cond in the car by freeze my tears..haha...And i realize it is easy to be past and future tense but it is darn hard to be present tense..much more harder.like 1 compare to 1 million..
My life will not end today...i need to move and walk more..Wish i can have the friends like yesterday i have in the present day...AND i want to say..I THINK I REALLY FALL IN LOVE TO ALL OF YOU..NOT THAT BOY AND GIRL LOVE .BUT AS A FRIENDS AND THE HAPPY AND SWEET MOMENT WE HAVE EXPERIENCE AT THE PAST TIME..IT FEEL MUCH MORE HARD TO SAY BYE BYE TO ALL OF YOU..BUT FOR THOSE WHO HAVE READ MY BLOG...THANKS FOR WELCOME ME BE APART OF U LIFE BEFORE...THANKS Q(tears finally pop out..haha..)