Today is 23/12..now is 11.47 pm...
Actually there are nothing much i want to say or tell...waiting the Garena to update finished then i will go to sleep...haha..but..suddenly feel like blogging then just press a few button and start move my finger..><
Today me , Yan Zheng and Siew ling have go to JPN to renew our IC..cause already old than 18 years old and it is necessary for us to renew..Then we go eat breakfast and play bowling game..haha...me and Yan Zheng is mad...he have play 12 game and me have play 10 game cause later on Mui Fun join us and i give her the last 2 game ..of course,she got pay me back the money..haha
Just now..someone have ask me why people so scared bothering others(something sound like that..)..erm,i have answer the question by saying that cause they scared the people they bothering will feel sick of them..haha..how accurate the answer it is..><..but we didn't discuss about the topic and we have something like change the topic..haha.
Just suddenly feel like say more about the topic..why?erm,not a odd and unfamiliar question for me....I think i have ask and been ask by my other friends...Like the blog have say at the previous blog,i'm going to keep at distant with someone....how much i make it?i guess..not even 1 %..haha...just too much thing that i wish i can be better or close as friends to him..Somehow..the promise is not success..bad?..perhaps..
How much i scared of bothering people?..Just,i will worry that one day later someone will not like to be friends to me cause i'm too "fan" to him/her...Although someone told me that friends can not be calculate at that way..but, i have see some case either myself too when i'm not love someone and the guys is keep looking for me ...the feel of push him/her away always grow in my mind...and i will hide it and be usual...
No idea start from when.maybe when i'm about form 1..i scared that i have make someone have this kind of feeling cause me and it is not fun or ok...I dare to say i'm not feel bad get bother by someone i know or i want be close with nor i will sad if they are not bother me and i'm willing to get bother by other which is not in my "black list"...I'm not saying i'm any kind person who willing to sacrifice myself .just.happy when know that I'm not alone or lonely
Like i say..maybe i love alone but i hate lonely..how ridiculous it is?haha...that's me..KEK KOK WAH...nonsense person..
About change..i means changing my mentally or though..haha...funny when i found that I'm that kind of person have "problem"..so far i though my mother is the only one say that i'm but today..there are other one support my mother...erm..maybe i can save it for next blog when the feeling get stronger and i'm not as sleepy as i'm now..haha.
Just one more thing...Merry Christmas in less than 24 hours..haha..happy to see a gang of friends in same place again...wish it can funny , crazy and happy moment in my life time...THX for someone who give me advice and haha..i'm not ready..><
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