Hai, it have been a long time that i didnt write blog. Just suddenly came out with the idea or heart to write the blog. Just want to put something here, my feel and my thought recently.
I didn't read back the blog previously, cause i use to be, read back my diary and find back the feeling or passion i got before for certain thing. But i don't know why tonight i didn't do so, maybe it already late at night or something i don't want to admit.
Yes, i still don't want to admit something that make me look weak, i don't even sure should i publish this post. because this post will be very "scattered" , many thing, thought and feel i want to write came to my mind and i cant organize them.
But now i want to write down the biggest feeling in my mind now = people grow and change. Even sometimes i don't admit it,but the fact is the thing surrounding mewill not like yesterday. Even it is very hard for me to say but i just want to tell everyone i know== Goodbye. This is not a last letter or blog before me commit suicide, it just that i fell i have to say goodbye to people i know. Just that i cant do it face to face, it hardly come out from my mouth.
So, for those who might have the chance to read this blog, GOODBYE. i need to say it so that i can move forward. It is stint when i need to say so, but this is life , there will be more chance that i need to say goodbye so i might just practice now.
GOODBYE
Monday, December 13, 2010
Thursday, September 17, 2009
hello all
today is september 18, 2009.... quite long time i didnt write blog...short of forget how to start and what to write...just ....study architect...life is gettting boring and boring...no..i'm still excited with every assignment i do ... just..
I feel like want to have fun... i will say my life now is lifeless..due to H1N1 and some others reason..i'm staying house all day....got school ALFA..no school HOUSE- my room or living area....ALFA of course study..at house...music and assignment...
Sometimes i will behaviour like my classmate who do the assignment not late but not as early as me.... somehow, i just denied to doing so...when have free time..i will just sit down and start work start doing my assignment. ONE THING THAT I REALLY NOT SUANG..although i start early..they still can pass up same time with me...what the heck!!.haha..but i will only competitive with me..tired to challenge myself with others...
That's all la..i want to go back classroom and start be machine ..HAPPY...haha
I feel like want to have fun... i will say my life now is lifeless..due to H1N1 and some others reason..i'm staying house all day....got school ALFA..no school HOUSE- my room or living area....ALFA of course study..at house...music and assignment...
Sometimes i will behaviour like my classmate who do the assignment not late but not as early as me.... somehow, i just denied to doing so...when have free time..i will just sit down and start work start doing my assignment. ONE THING THAT I REALLY NOT SUANG..although i start early..they still can pass up same time with me...what the heck!!.haha..but i will only competitive with me..tired to challenge myself with others...
That's all la..i want to go back classroom and start be machine ..HAPPY...haha
Monday, June 15, 2009
something
Today is 14 JUn 2009 , time now is10.44p.m Just finished back from a trip with my form 6 friends from Cameron Highland.
I don't know how to write or in what way i can write my felling down. Last Friday my English lecture teach a topic about photo. photographer take a photo , no not a photo only but try to catch down their feeling into the photo. My point is...nonono, this blog shouldn't have any bad feeling blog as i have say last time.
Let's talk about happy or funny thing have happen in the trip..At first m Fion and Kee Sheng fighting in the car...now fighting but they both have use all their strength and power to get back or take away a cap...."monkey vs pig" war in the car..u cant imagine how but only mui fun, yan zheng and me who see it by our own eyes.
1 thing...i finally know how to play Mahjong already..This is my 1st time play mahjong and somehow my father just don't want to teach me how to play... But with the experience that go to the Mahjong club house every Sunday(when children)... somehow u can get some idea how to play..WAHAHA( i also always see my form 6 friends always play..sure know la..got some is "lan du gui" leh..example..Siew Ling, Yan Zheng and Yoke Xin"
I going to get kill after the blog is publish out..haha...Now, i found that it is hard for me to describe happy feeling....perhaps my world is at sad place..
HAVE TO CHANGE...i have to change, change my thought ..move on and accept new thing.. My box to keep bad feeling is full..Time to fill in other feeling box.
Just one thing for sure is that i'm happy know how to express...I'm very very happy , glad , tanks to god(a bit bombastic.)that give me a chance to study at form 6 and know all my form 6 friends today...although i didn't success in form 6 exam--STPM, but i know ppl will grown and move on,,,this memory and thought will always keep inside my brain cell..hope that my luck could possible to add to all of u to archive what my form 6 friends want..
Although every time i separated from them will make me feel sad or like losing something..but i will always join their trip in future(if have)..GOOD NIGHT
I don't know how to write or in what way i can write my felling down. Last Friday my English lecture teach a topic about photo. photographer take a photo , no not a photo only but try to catch down their feeling into the photo. My point is...nonono, this blog shouldn't have any bad feeling blog as i have say last time.
Let's talk about happy or funny thing have happen in the trip..At first m Fion and Kee Sheng fighting in the car...now fighting but they both have use all their strength and power to get back or take away a cap...."monkey vs pig" war in the car..u cant imagine how but only mui fun, yan zheng and me who see it by our own eyes.
1 thing...i finally know how to play Mahjong already..This is my 1st time play mahjong and somehow my father just don't want to teach me how to play... But with the experience that go to the Mahjong club house every Sunday(when children)... somehow u can get some idea how to play..WAHAHA( i also always see my form 6 friends always play..sure know la..got some is "lan du gui" leh..example..Siew Ling, Yan Zheng and Yoke Xin"
I going to get kill after the blog is publish out..haha...Now, i found that it is hard for me to describe happy feeling....perhaps my world is at sad place..
HAVE TO CHANGE...i have to change, change my thought ..move on and accept new thing.. My box to keep bad feeling is full..Time to fill in other feeling box.
Just one thing for sure is that i'm happy know how to express...I'm very very happy , glad , tanks to god(a bit bombastic.)that give me a chance to study at form 6 and know all my form 6 friends today...although i didn't success in form 6 exam--STPM, but i know ppl will grown and move on,,,this memory and thought will always keep inside my brain cell..hope that my luck could possible to add to all of u to archive what my form 6 friends want..
Although every time i separated from them will make me feel sad or like losing something..but i will always join their trip in future(if have)..GOOD NIGHT
Thursday, January 22, 2009
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS
What is the problem to be sad?down?abnormalto a happy ownself as usual??could it be family?lovers?friends?or......just something and nothing?
Chinese New Years is coming and it will arrive in 4 day more....Recently i have recall something that have happen in the last years upon Chinese New Years....shall i share some here?..haha..
"POP"...what a crazy song><...which is sing by a group of nonsense and crazy fellow..build by..leader:fion..and members which is Yan Zheng , Siew Ling , Chin Fai, Man Soon and me not to forget and other too which i didn't write down here..Still can remember the way we present our song....do u guys still remember?...sing in hakka , and etc language..and sing wherever we are and we free...all the image and envirnoment in my brain...is in 1 word..FUNNY!!!!^^
Do u know that angpou package can make to a hat??..haha..I believe eventhough u know , u won't be so crazy to try it..but...last years, some of our classmate have decided to design the classroom to feel like CNY..then we start to prepare the angpou fish , angpou tanglung and etc...At last?..we didnt make it..cause i didn't bring the needle and "benang" to school...so , it is my fault?yea..it is..T.T.. Anyway..there are someone creative thinkinh people in our class and make the angpou tanglung we make into 1 hat and wear it...and who is the one????...hahahahaa..deng deng deng..it is ....WONG YAN ZHENG...WAHAHA....
Still remember during holiday for CNY..then u drive my brother car and fetch 2 of my friends to go out have fun....then at one moment..we decided to go Siew Ling house bai nian..then at the traffic light there..i almost hit a car cause my car turn back(that time i'm still newbie)....Lucky it didn't hit..haha
Sure there will be something happen and i didn't join....such as bai nian sessions that make by many guys...but i didn't join cause i don't know at 1st..but nevermind...let the pass be pass...~.~
Just suddenly feel like...do i really have enjoy and have such event in my life before?..haha....For this few days i have been suffer for 1 answer and 1 questions(dream)..Afraid to found and admit it?..ya.i do..afraid is the point here....trying to run and forget it after wake up..and it do stop appear in my dream for today.haha..lucky^^....
Like i sad before..maybe one day later i wil regret to the decisions i have make now...but..whatever it is....JUST WANT TO TELL U ALL
>>>>>>>HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS<<<<<
Chinese New Years is coming and it will arrive in 4 day more....Recently i have recall something that have happen in the last years upon Chinese New Years....shall i share some here?..haha..
"POP"...what a crazy song><...which is sing by a group of nonsense and crazy fellow..build by..leader:fion..and members which is Yan Zheng , Siew Ling , Chin Fai, Man Soon and me not to forget and other too which i didn't write down here..Still can remember the way we present our song....do u guys still remember?...sing in hakka , and etc language..and sing wherever we are and we free...all the image and envirnoment in my brain...is in 1 word..FUNNY!!!!^^
Do u know that angpou package can make to a hat??..haha..I believe eventhough u know , u won't be so crazy to try it..but...last years, some of our classmate have decided to design the classroom to feel like CNY..then we start to prepare the angpou fish , angpou tanglung and etc...At last?..we didnt make it..cause i didn't bring the needle and "benang" to school...so , it is my fault?yea..it is..T.T.. Anyway..there are someone creative thinkinh people in our class and make the angpou tanglung we make into 1 hat and wear it...and who is the one????...hahahahaa..deng deng deng..it is ....WONG YAN ZHENG...WAHAHA....
Still remember during holiday for CNY..then u drive my brother car and fetch 2 of my friends to go out have fun....then at one moment..we decided to go Siew Ling house bai nian..then at the traffic light there..i almost hit a car cause my car turn back(that time i'm still newbie)....Lucky it didn't hit..haha
Sure there will be something happen and i didn't join....such as bai nian sessions that make by many guys...but i didn't join cause i don't know at 1st..but nevermind...let the pass be pass...~.~
Just suddenly feel like...do i really have enjoy and have such event in my life before?..haha....For this few days i have been suffer for 1 answer and 1 questions(dream)..Afraid to found and admit it?..ya.i do..afraid is the point here....trying to run and forget it after wake up..and it do stop appear in my dream for today.haha..lucky^^....
Like i sad before..maybe one day later i wil regret to the decisions i have make now...but..whatever it is....JUST WANT TO TELL U ALL
>>>>>>>HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARS<<<<<
Thursday, January 8, 2009
JOB..WORK..
Hai blogger...such a long time didn't write or add new post to you..
So far, the major topic in my mind now is job or work...erm....(study also important..
haha)..job....what can i say about it?...the TRIPRO.i cant join..cause parents and...whatever...the point is i didn't go to there work more..
so far i go....now i back to the starting point..like snake game...when I'm almost reach the 100..a stair 'bring' me back to the first place...sad?feel fail?..but now i just know i need to start to roll the dice and continue my journey...
So,what is my first step now?...let see..teacher?telesales?new era? or my bro job--typing?..
teacher..huh..then i really back to the started point..haha..i think u all know my means...YU HUA?.batu 11?...aaa....whatever..have job...i go..desperate to run from boring and doing nothing...~.~....Tomorrow i will go Yu Hua to confirm is there any place for me?..if no, there is no point for me to wait.i guess..
Telesales?..erm...have friends accompany..too bad...something tell me no need take it into list..sure can't or band by my parents...
New ERA?...be a librarian..Kah Wei suggest me go....at first i do think want to give a try...but, the newspaper still have so many bad news about it...don't know if i work at there..is there any reporter came and ask me question?..maybe can see my face in newspaper..then got any company see me and ask me to work for them....haha..dream
My bro job?...erm.let see.....1st i don't want to be my brother shadow...2nd..the job is really sien and the salary is not good....><..haha..but quiet free and can play game during work as long as u didn't kena catch..haha..somemore can take the company property like empty cd which my brother and his friends have done before..
overall...or now,i wish i can get teacher job...at least it can make me free and can 'visit' my friends...more easy and comfortable..but...my dream and what i want wont be so easy for me to get,isn't god?
So far, the major topic in my mind now is job or work...erm....(study also important..
haha)..job....what can i say about it?...the TRIPRO.i cant join..cause parents and...whatever...the point is i didn't go to there work more..
so far i go....now i back to the starting point..like snake game...when I'm almost reach the 100..a stair 'bring' me back to the first place...sad?feel fail?..but now i just know i need to start to roll the dice and continue my journey...
So,what is my first step now?...let see..teacher?telesales?new era? or my bro job--typing?..
teacher..huh..then i really back to the started point..haha..i think u all know my means...YU HUA?.batu 11?...aaa....whatever..have job...i go..desperate to run from boring and doing nothing...~.~....Tomorrow i will go Yu Hua to confirm is there any place for me?..if no, there is no point for me to wait.i guess..
Telesales?..erm...have friends accompany..too bad...something tell me no need take it into list..sure can't or band by my parents...
New ERA?...be a librarian..Kah Wei suggest me go....at first i do think want to give a try...but, the newspaper still have so many bad news about it...don't know if i work at there..is there any reporter came and ask me question?..maybe can see my face in newspaper..then got any company see me and ask me to work for them....haha..dream
My bro job?...erm.let see.....1st i don't want to be my brother shadow...2nd..the job is really sien and the salary is not good....><..haha..but quiet free and can play game during work as long as u didn't kena catch..haha..somemore can take the company property like empty cd which my brother and his friends have done before..
overall...or now,i wish i can get teacher job...at least it can make me free and can 'visit' my friends...more easy and comfortable..but...my dream and what i want wont be so easy for me to get,isn't god?
Friday, January 2, 2009
nothing.....
Today is 2/1/2009..now is 7pm...
2008 already be the history of the earth....yet..the earth is getting sick and worst i guess..haha..><.
bother am i..the topic of the previous blog ..yes..the answer i have figure out..and i think i have to admit it too.I AM...never mind...haha..wish better get better...admit worst..be the worst..~.~
It is such a long time i didn't blog already....lazy is the point and no feel is the 2nd reason...><
What to say...ERm, let's talk about the celebration of 2009..It is..at 31/12/2008..the last day of the 2008....me and my friends have held a BBQ party at jay Yap house..At the morning...basketball program..evening--->shopping program...at night---->BBQ program..haha..full with activities...That's why I didn't send any Happy News Years message to all my friends...cause after back from the party..i'm damn tired and straight go meet MR.Zhao after take bath...
Aikz...there are so many food left , then me and siew ling keep "burn" the food such as fishballl, sotong ball ,prawn ball , chicken wing and hotdog..haha...After that , me , siew ling , jia yiing and fion go ta take a walk at Jay Yap taman...then when we reach the highway....we can see firework that held at BEACH CAFE.....HAPPY NEW YEARS...
Back to the 'toy land' opposite Jay Yap house..haha...our big kids is trying to do vandalisme on those gadget...haha..sometimes...in our deep down heart...we are still kid ...haha..did i?anyway...hope the neighbour didn't angry for making sound pollution.
While all the people is buzy sending message to their friends...I lying down at somewhere and look to the sky...bad thing is there are not moon but it do have some star to accompany me..make me feel more..good?..WAHAHA.on the spot...i have recall my memory and a funny picture have come to my mind...A unforgettable event..
About cleaning house...haha..FINALLY!!!!....BUAHAHAHAHHA.finished..><...yesterday wake up and start to work..clean the wall, take out the item clean and put it back...After a long term fight and haha...i win^^..
2008 already be the history of the earth....yet..the earth is getting sick and worst i guess..haha..><.
bother am i..the topic of the previous blog ..yes..the answer i have figure out..and i think i have to admit it too.I AM...never mind...haha..wish better get better...admit worst..be the worst..~.~
It is such a long time i didn't blog already....lazy is the point and no feel is the 2nd reason...><
What to say...ERm, let's talk about the celebration of 2009..It is..at 31/12/2008..the last day of the 2008....me and my friends have held a BBQ party at jay Yap house..At the morning...basketball program..evening--->shopping program...at night---->BBQ program..haha..full with activities...That's why I didn't send any Happy News Years message to all my friends...cause after back from the party..i'm damn tired and straight go meet MR.Zhao after take bath...
Aikz...there are so many food left , then me and siew ling keep "burn" the food such as fishballl, sotong ball ,prawn ball , chicken wing and hotdog..haha...After that , me , siew ling , jia yiing and fion go ta take a walk at Jay Yap taman...then when we reach the highway....we can see firework that held at BEACH CAFE.....HAPPY NEW YEARS...
Back to the 'toy land' opposite Jay Yap house..haha...our big kids is trying to do vandalisme on those gadget...haha..sometimes...in our deep down heart...we are still kid ...haha..did i?anyway...hope the neighbour didn't angry for making sound pollution.
While all the people is buzy sending message to their friends...I lying down at somewhere and look to the sky...bad thing is there are not moon but it do have some star to accompany me..make me feel more..good?..WAHAHA.on the spot...i have recall my memory and a funny picture have come to my mind...A unforgettable event..
About cleaning house...haha..FINALLY!!!!....BUAHAHAHAHHA.finished..><...yesterday wake up and start to work..clean the wall, take out the item clean and put it back...After a long term fight and haha...i win^^..
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
BOTHER....am i?
Today is 23/12..now is 11.47 pm...
Actually there are nothing much i want to say or tell...waiting the Garena to update finished then i will go to sleep...haha..but..suddenly feel like blogging then just press a few button and start move my finger..><
Today me , Yan Zheng and Siew ling have go to JPN to renew our IC..cause already old than 18 years old and it is necessary for us to renew..Then we go eat breakfast and play bowling game..haha...me and Yan Zheng is mad...he have play 12 game and me have play 10 game cause later on Mui Fun join us and i give her the last 2 game ..of course,she got pay me back the money..haha
Just now..someone have ask me why people so scared bothering others(something sound like that..)..erm,i have answer the question by saying that cause they scared the people they bothering will feel sick of them..haha..how accurate the answer it is..><..but we didn't discuss about the topic and we have something like change the topic..haha.
Just suddenly feel like say more about the topic..why?erm,not a odd and unfamiliar question for me....I think i have ask and been ask by my other friends...Like the blog have say at the previous blog,i'm going to keep at distant with someone....how much i make it?i guess..not even 1 %..haha...just too much thing that i wish i can be better or close as friends to him..Somehow..the promise is not success..bad?..perhaps..
How much i scared of bothering people?..Just,i will worry that one day later someone will not like to be friends to me cause i'm too "fan" to him/her...Although someone told me that friends can not be calculate at that way..but, i have see some case either myself too when i'm not love someone and the guys is keep looking for me ...the feel of push him/her away always grow in my mind...and i will hide it and be usual...
No idea start from when.maybe when i'm about form 1..i scared that i have make someone have this kind of feeling cause me and it is not fun or ok...I dare to say i'm not feel bad get bother by someone i know or i want be close with nor i will sad if they are not bother me and i'm willing to get bother by other which is not in my "black list"...I'm not saying i'm any kind person who willing to sacrifice myself .just.happy when know that I'm not alone or lonely
Like i say..maybe i love alone but i hate lonely..how ridiculous it is?haha...that's me..KEK KOK WAH...nonsense person..
About change..i means changing my mentally or though..haha...funny when i found that I'm that kind of person have "problem"..so far i though my mother is the only one say that i'm but today..there are other one support my mother...erm..maybe i can save it for next blog when the feeling get stronger and i'm not as sleepy as i'm now..haha.
Just one more thing...Merry Christmas in less than 24 hours..haha..happy to see a gang of friends in same place again...wish it can funny , crazy and happy moment in my life time...THX for someone who give me advice and haha..i'm not ready..><
Actually there are nothing much i want to say or tell...waiting the Garena to update finished then i will go to sleep...haha..but..suddenly feel like blogging then just press a few button and start move my finger..><
Today me , Yan Zheng and Siew ling have go to JPN to renew our IC..cause already old than 18 years old and it is necessary for us to renew..Then we go eat breakfast and play bowling game..haha...me and Yan Zheng is mad...he have play 12 game and me have play 10 game cause later on Mui Fun join us and i give her the last 2 game ..of course,she got pay me back the money..haha
Just now..someone have ask me why people so scared bothering others(something sound like that..)..erm,i have answer the question by saying that cause they scared the people they bothering will feel sick of them..haha..how accurate the answer it is..><..but we didn't discuss about the topic and we have something like change the topic..haha.
Just suddenly feel like say more about the topic..why?erm,not a odd and unfamiliar question for me....I think i have ask and been ask by my other friends...Like the blog have say at the previous blog,i'm going to keep at distant with someone....how much i make it?i guess..not even 1 %..haha...just too much thing that i wish i can be better or close as friends to him..Somehow..the promise is not success..bad?..perhaps..
How much i scared of bothering people?..Just,i will worry that one day later someone will not like to be friends to me cause i'm too "fan" to him/her...Although someone told me that friends can not be calculate at that way..but, i have see some case either myself too when i'm not love someone and the guys is keep looking for me ...the feel of push him/her away always grow in my mind...and i will hide it and be usual...
No idea start from when.maybe when i'm about form 1..i scared that i have make someone have this kind of feeling cause me and it is not fun or ok...I dare to say i'm not feel bad get bother by someone i know or i want be close with nor i will sad if they are not bother me and i'm willing to get bother by other which is not in my "black list"...I'm not saying i'm any kind person who willing to sacrifice myself .just.happy when know that I'm not alone or lonely
Like i say..maybe i love alone but i hate lonely..how ridiculous it is?haha...that's me..KEK KOK WAH...nonsense person..
About change..i means changing my mentally or though..haha...funny when i found that I'm that kind of person have "problem"..so far i though my mother is the only one say that i'm but today..there are other one support my mother...erm..maybe i can save it for next blog when the feeling get stronger and i'm not as sleepy as i'm now..haha.
Just one more thing...Merry Christmas in less than 24 hours..haha..happy to see a gang of friends in same place again...wish it can funny , crazy and happy moment in my life time...THX for someone who give me advice and haha..i'm not ready..><
Sunday, December 21, 2008
Some Stuff....
Today is 22/12/2008...3.38pm...wait to watch ataschinci..><
it have been long time that i didn't blog ..or i didn't blog at this blog..><..(maybe u get my point..)...
let review of the recently event or trip or plan i have do....After back from Pangkor trip...erm, I think the next activities i have do is go out with my friends with my friends which is Bryan Kong and William Chong To KLCC..Somehow , I'm not that enjoy on the trip...Going to KLCC is Brayn Kong idea..cause he want to buy and he did buy a watlet at GUCCI!!!!erm..you can imagine or predict how much the watlet cost...
Still can remember the day I meet Bryan Kong at Kajang train Station..For me , he is "over-dresses"...Darn, he wear black spec which is not suitable for the environment..look weird.>..<..Rich people world is a pplace i will and cant either don;t want to "follow".
Anyway..i have go to Kinokumiya for the twilight series book..but..T.T..all sold out..with finished 1 movie and shop at a quite expensive cloth shop then we back to Kajang..erm..not here to show-off or anything but..haha..he is "increase" his taste EXPENSIVELY
Erm, I think about last Thursday , me and my friends which is Yan Zheng , Chin Fai , Man Soon , Ming Han , Siew Ling, Mui Fun , Kah Wei and Yoke Xin have go to Tripo Tech at Puchong to interview and get a part time job..something have happen and settle...haha.><
Then the event for today and for me is a "crazy" thing which is playing basketball at Batu11 with my form 6 friends who are..Yan Zheng , Yan Zheng brother , Chin Fai , Kee Sheng , Ah Teoh and Kah Wei....erm..why i say it is crazy thing?..Sport..this word is familiar and "unfriednsly" for me...I have already didn't touch any type of sport for about 7 years..wahaha.><
I can say with honest that when I'm in primary school..i quite know how to play ..for sure I'm not means that i'm professional or damn geng...but i think is better than now..once i know how to shot the basketball or swimming ..but now...i know how to make air-ball and drown><...I don't remember why i dislike it or give up the sport when I'm in the secondary school or get "older".All the skill that i have learn and know have gone in no way..T.T
I still can remember last night when i invited Ah Teoh to play basketball..he have ask me for 3 times who is calling him although i have told him that i'm Kek KOK WAH..Therefore it can be easily see that in all people brain i'm the sporty guys..><..haha..
But.I think I'm not going or learned how to shot the ball for now..haha..When Yan Zheng is teaching Chin fai and Kah Wei how to shot the ball better with changing the position and etc...I'm not that "semangat" to give me a try..why?erm...how to say.. just...i think i need time..time to fix something inside myself...haha
TIME....
it have been long time that i didn't blog ..or i didn't blog at this blog..><..(maybe u get my point..)...
let review of the recently event or trip or plan i have do....After back from Pangkor trip...erm, I think the next activities i have do is go out with my friends with my friends which is Bryan Kong and William Chong To KLCC..Somehow , I'm not that enjoy on the trip...Going to KLCC is Brayn Kong idea..cause he want to buy and he did buy a watlet at GUCCI!!!!erm..you can imagine or predict how much the watlet cost...
Still can remember the day I meet Bryan Kong at Kajang train Station..For me , he is "over-dresses"...Darn, he wear black spec which is not suitable for the environment..look weird.>.
Anyway..i have go to Kinokumiya for the twilight series book..but..T.T..all sold out..with finished 1 movie and shop at a quite expensive cloth shop then we back to Kajang..erm..not here to show-off or anything but..haha..he is "increase" his taste EXPENSIVELY
Erm, I think about last Thursday , me and my friends which is Yan Zheng , Chin Fai , Man Soon , Ming Han , Siew Ling, Mui Fun , Kah Wei and Yoke Xin have go to Tripo Tech at Puchong to interview and get a part time job..something have happen and settle...haha.><
Then the event for today and for me is a "crazy" thing which is playing basketball at Batu11 with my form 6 friends who are..Yan Zheng , Yan Zheng brother , Chin Fai , Kee Sheng , Ah Teoh and Kah Wei....erm..why i say it is crazy thing?..Sport..this word is familiar and "unfriednsly" for me...I have already didn't touch any type of sport for about 7 years..wahaha.><
I can say with honest that when I'm in primary school..i quite know how to play ..for sure I'm not means that i'm professional or damn geng...but i think is better than now..once i know how to shot the basketball or swimming ..but now...i know how to make air-ball and drown><...I don't remember why i dislike it or give up the sport when I'm in the secondary school or get "older".All the skill that i have learn and know have gone in no way..T.T
I still can remember last night when i invited Ah Teoh to play basketball..he have ask me for 3 times who is calling him although i have told him that i'm Kek KOK WAH..Therefore it can be easily see that in all people brain i'm the sporty guys..><..haha..
But.I think I'm not going or learned how to shot the ball for now..haha..When Yan Zheng is teaching Chin fai and Kah Wei how to shot the ball better with changing the position and etc...I'm not that "semangat" to give me a try..why?erm...how to say.. just...i think i need time..time to fix something inside myself...haha
TIME....
Monday, December 15, 2008
Part time job~~~
Today is 15/12/2008....now is 8.07 p.m..
Just back from shopping with my friends at Mid-valley..cause i have to buy some cloth for the coming Chinese News Years and my job which high probability to become a part time teacher...
Hmmm...being a part time teacher is one of choice as a part time job but i didn't think i would need go so far and is alone guys..This story is because my mother have heard from her friends and insist me to go..Yesterday night i have just back from dinner and yam cha session and my friends then i want to tell them my plan for the part time job...i haven't given a chance to say what i want but my mother already come out the word that,"i want u become part time teacher", "i prefer u become part time teacher"...
I'm not given a second or chance to tell her and she keep say the same word when i'm going to start to tell her my plan...Then,maybe recently or whatever my temper just grow and control my character and leave their room without saying a word..
This morning i have wake up and we have make something like cool war..Until then i be the one who start to talk with her and the cool war end and i go out to shopping with my friends..Just now back from shopping and once i see her face..i have no idea why and how my temper again grow and i suddenly feel like angry about her..I want to know why my mother so love to control my life?..why she just can't believe about the choice i have make?
So long..without my brother help me..there will impossible that i can go out to play with my friends like today ...So far..what i want to do if fail at 1st and with my brother help it will more chance to success...
Just now watching TV and i suddenly think back that i'm not possible to change my job cause i have ask my friends that help me to ask a job that near at Kajang..But i recall the paper that i have sign when i ask to be temporary teacher..It stat that i need to tell the school one month early if i don't want to be teacher or whatever.. Maybe it sound blur for you who read now..but for sure i think i really need to be the only guys who work at that school in next January although i might have better offer in the coming day...
Back to some happen event..Yesterday i have enjoy with my dinner with my "family" again..haha..so happy that they have make a surprises to me..Thx to all of them.. THX^^..It such a pleasure and lucky to meet and be friends with you all.. Wish all the best to you all guys and sorry is the word i want to say to someone ...I really didn't say anything out..and i will apply my promise to myself that i have stat in the last blog..so...i don't know ..i think it is a better that i'm working alone too..
Can't let him go?..hmm...i think more sound like i will deep dead sad if need to say goodbye to him and others again in the coming day...告别伤心，思念开始。。。
Just back from shopping with my friends at Mid-valley..cause i have to buy some cloth for the coming Chinese News Years and my job which high probability to become a part time teacher...
Hmmm...being a part time teacher is one of choice as a part time job but i didn't think i would need go so far and is alone guys..This story is because my mother have heard from her friends and insist me to go..Yesterday night i have just back from dinner and yam cha session and my friends then i want to tell them my plan for the part time job...i haven't given a chance to say what i want but my mother already come out the word that,"i want u become part time teacher", "i prefer u become part time teacher"...
I'm not given a second or chance to tell her and she keep say the same word when i'm going to start to tell her my plan...Then,maybe recently or whatever my temper just grow and control my character and leave their room without saying a word..
This morning i have wake up and we have make something like cool war..Until then i be the one who start to talk with her and the cool war end and i go out to shopping with my friends..Just now back from shopping and once i see her face..i have no idea why and how my temper again grow and i suddenly feel like angry about her..I want to know why my mother so love to control my life?..why she just can't believe about the choice i have make?
So long..without my brother help me..there will impossible that i can go out to play with my friends like today ...So far..what i want to do if fail at 1st and with my brother help it will more chance to success...
Just now watching TV and i suddenly think back that i'm not possible to change my job cause i have ask my friends that help me to ask a job that near at Kajang..But i recall the paper that i have sign when i ask to be temporary teacher..It stat that i need to tell the school one month early if i don't want to be teacher or whatever.. Maybe it sound blur for you who read now..but for sure i think i really need to be the only guys who work at that school in next January although i might have better offer in the coming day...
Back to some happen event..Yesterday i have enjoy with my dinner with my "family" again..haha..so happy that they have make a surprises to me..Thx to all of them.. THX^^..It such a pleasure and lucky to meet and be friends with you all.. Wish all the best to you all guys and sorry is the word i want to say to someone ...I really didn't say anything out..and i will apply my promise to myself that i have stat in the last blog..so...i don't know ..i think it is a better that i'm working alone too..
Can't let him go?..hmm...i think more sound like i will deep dead sad if need to say goodbye to him and others again in the coming day...告别伤心，思念开始。。。
Saturday, December 13, 2008
A promise to myself
Today is 14/12/2008...3.26pm.
Today i'm really alone in my house..cause my parents have go to play with their friends early this morning...good news for me and for my parents..
Already back from pangkor trip for 3 day.I guess my feel wasn't that down as i feel that day...but it doesn't means i don't miss anymore..just like all people say..save it in the heart..><
Still looking for job now..wish can heard good news from chin fai but also scared for the job he can get for me cause is about computer and software...i'm noob to it..but.wish i can get job cause now is desperate to get job and money..><
Just now chatting with my friend who is study at Canada----->Tan Hyui Sxin..haha.. recently keep see her online..maybe now she is darn free cause her final exam is going to finished...
In the talk we have discuss about people attitude..hmm..maybe i should start like this..i think i'm too stick to someone..then i have ask some opinion about it..She tell me if someone is too stick to her .she might feel not comfortable and try to avoid from the people that stick with her..
For that moment..i think i'm in trouble.cause i think i'm too stick too someone.. Like she say.....although my heart might want to be friends with the one i care but i doesn't or i shouldn't make the other feel uncomfortable and vomit feel..
I have realize my problem once and maybe that time i'm pretend to be half blind person to the problem..but today and just now.i have make myself a conclusion...I need to be or set a distance i guess is the correct word to the one i stick too much..
Maybe i have really make him feel bad or like my friends say..vomit feel that he didn't tell me or how to me,..in other word..don't want to hurt me..So, i think i know what should i do and what shouldn't i do ..haha..
i write down just want to remind me .. to make me not to forget the thing i have say to myself..ME..scared bother people and scared people will angry and avoid from me but in fact what i do might or already make him feel sick toward me..
All is clear now and i think i have found a guide line...be happy kok wah.^^it is also for you own good..haha..^^..
P/S:for those who are prepare to enjoy dinner with me but i reject i feel so much sorry and only sorry is the word i want to say to you all..like i say just now..i sacred what have i say and do is bothering you all so for my view i think you all should be with yours parents..just that;s all..SORRY..
Today i'm really alone in my house..cause my parents have go to play with their friends early this morning...good news for me and for my parents..
Already back from pangkor trip for 3 day.I guess my feel wasn't that down as i feel that day...but it doesn't means i don't miss anymore..just like all people say..save it in the heart..><
Still looking for job now..wish can heard good news from chin fai but also scared for the job he can get for me cause is about computer and software...i'm noob to it..but.wish i can get job cause now is desperate to get job and money..><
Just now chatting with my friend who is study at Canada----->Tan Hyui Sxin..haha.. recently keep see her online..maybe now she is darn free cause her final exam is going to finished...
In the talk we have discuss about people attitude..hmm..maybe i should start like this..i think i'm too stick to someone..then i have ask some opinion about it..She tell me if someone is too stick to her .she might feel not comfortable and try to avoid from the people that stick with her..
For that moment..i think i'm in trouble.cause i think i'm too stick too someone.. Like she say.....although my heart might want to be friends with the one i care but i doesn't or i shouldn't make the other feel uncomfortable and vomit feel..
I have realize my problem once and maybe that time i'm pretend to be half blind person to the problem..but today and just now.i have make myself a conclusion...I need to be or set a distance i guess is the correct word to the one i stick too much..
Maybe i have really make him feel bad or like my friends say..vomit feel that he didn't tell me or how to me,..in other word..don't want to hurt me..So, i think i know what should i do and what shouldn't i do ..haha..
i write down just want to remind me .. to make me not to forget the thing i have say to myself..ME..scared bother people and scared people will angry and avoid from me but in fact what i do might or already make him feel sick toward me..
All is clear now and i think i have found a guide line...be happy kok wah.^^it is also for you own good..haha..^^..
P/S:for those who are prepare to enjoy dinner with me but i reject i feel so much sorry and only sorry is the word i want to say to you all..like i say just now..i sacred what have i say and do is bothering you all so for my view i think you all should be with yours parents..just that;s all..SORRY..
Thursday, December 11, 2008
"FAMILY" trip..~.~
Today is 12/12/2008..time now is 9.57 at the morning...everything seems already have to be the "past tense"...but my feel is still the same as yesterday night...perhaps it will be better later or in the future..Here is something i have write in a paper because i cant sleep by keep thinking about it and i don't want to lost the feel and my memory when wake up 2moro..
Today is 11/12/2008..now is 11.59p,...Now i feel like i am in the pening laut situation====pening.~.~There are 1 word to describe my felling now------>confuse..haha ..sound weird..><
I still remember the process. the sweet memory, the funny moment, the desperated situation and etc. Me and my friends have gather in the Kajang Bus Station before go to Pudu..i have to wake up at 4.30 in the morning cause need to reach the bus station before 6 am...T have to say very thank you to Siew ling because fetch me(aligator.^^). But we have 1 "VIP" in our group===>Lee Chin Fai..haha..He reach the bus station at 6.15...but it doesn't matter cause all the thing is still follow the schedule..
We reach the Pudu bus station and meet the friends which live in Cheras and already waiting us at a nearby KFC...Total people 15..boy team:me , Yan Zheng,Chin Fai , Man Soon , Kee Sheng , Ah Teoh , MIng Han and Xiau Sa..girl team: Siew ling, Sze Chi , Ling Shi , Kah Wei(sifu) , Yoke Xin (sipak) , Mei Yan and Pei Seen..On the journey to the Pangkor perlabuhan...my friends have enjoy them by "gamble" and sleep..some of the friends have decided to take those funny sleeping pose..haha..and i enjoy the 4 hrs trip by listen to music and enjoy the view outside the window.. .i'm so happy that i sit in bus cause it such a long time i didn't use the bus already..
Once reach the Pangkor, we go to the Coral Bar...2 apartment for 15 people of us..
Overall, our Pangkor trip is full with the event that playing water , walk at the beach , feel the softness of the sand , the smell of the sea , the force of the winf , and many many else..and the important event is the "cor dai di" time for boy when have free time and the shopping hours for the girl~.~
Those girl are crazy for shopping..><..They can shopping in a same shop for 4 time and above...mad already they(they will kill me later...)But that is the "kung FU" of the girl inherit with which i or much of the male people cant learn that prefect..The 1st thing all guys do is swim in the sea and sand ball to throw the innosence guys like me...but i'm the one who keep their wallet and their "harta"..DONT TRY TO PLAY WITH ME....HOHOHOHHOH
The other thing will be i finally have touch the sea...Is is my 1st time to "swim" in the sea..and the water is so so so so "SIEN"... The poor thing is i get "bully" by the boy and girl..T.T..I think i will drown for one moment but lucky that i'm still survive and typing the blog now and here....haha
The 3 day 2 night trip at Pangkor ...I think i'm the most troublesome people..why?.I can easily lost my wallet , sandals , and my mobile phone..until a level where i'm not dare to keep the door key in my bag..><
The 1st day at night...i have a long night talk with Yan Zheng...cause that day at night...we all 14 people(beside xiau sa cause he need to sleep)have gather and talk ghost story...that make the girl afraid and have 3 boys decided to "protect" them by sleep at their room...but i don't know how much it work but for sure is Ah Teoh have turn to become their "father" after that night...and me and Yan Zheng have spend 2 hrs and 30 minute to talking session..
Then the 2nd day night ..we all decided to rent bicycle and take a "walk" in the Pangkor..An i have do a wrong thing by express my word with more rough feel..It make me feel bad cause i should be enjoy the process..~~~After the bicycle..we all have buy 4 bottle of beer and head to the beach that what have also done in the 1st night at Pangkor...Drinking the Beer and enjoy the song sing by all and the guitar-man----->JAY YAP(YAP MING HAN)...hohohoh.it is a sweet moment...All people sound enjoying the moment and then me and some friends "sleep" in the sand and enjoy the moon light..For a period of time me and kah wei (my sifu)..sleep at yan zheng body to enjoy and feel funny..haha.
1 amazing thing is ..when we back from cycling..the pedal of the yan Zheng bike have have broke and he have to run back for a far distant and and taking his bike as well.How well done is his "cell of sukan" in his body.~.~..then at 12 am..when back to the apartment and all gather in the girl room..playing card game and punish the loser..~.~..Yan Zheng is poor guys which like the only 1 guys get punish..of course me also kena .T.T.but is sound terrible for Yan Zheng ..seems like he want to get punish purposly. Are you,Yan Zheng? ...
Now my feel is more to sad and sleepy.. The happy moment have came to the end or more exactly is our trip and the friendship is started decrease..Although some have say FRIENDS FOREVER...i know what it means , how it work , and the % of success....like the Brighton have say in the Nanny show before..:"of course you will remember us for a while..after u have have u own children.You will start to decrease to see us and at last you will forget about us."..What the Brighton say is equal as what i think..Now or today..we might dare to say that we are friends forever...but the time and years came and go..are we still able to say the same thing like today?are will still remember each other?are we?
Although some play a joke that they will go to my house and "pon" me for fun...It sound funny and happy for me..but ,the feel is different ..the fell that we study at the school every day..and the feel we like just looking and pass away...it make me feel sad, forgotten , and like a puzzle lost a piece to finished it...It just something that it wouldn't as good as it was...
The 3day 2 night at Pangkor is nice and cool for me..With the Happy force and unexpected event..Now i can't sleep..Back to a room where i sleep ...it feel a bit lost..no more yellow light on the wall...no more people beside me to sleep ....It is what call as LIFE.i need to deal with it , understand it..I think i can suite myself again in this room again sooner or later but.i don't and can't accept the way i need to deal with it..KEK KOK WAH...WAKE UP AAA!!!!!YOU ARE NO LONGER A CHILDREN!!!!!..no more~~~~
Maybe it is due to it is the 1st time i have a trip with my friends with overnight..i need to grow up..no need to accept myself but make sure i live in the old type life style as soon as possible..don't stuck in the pass..
I don't know what to say more..Don't exactly what should i think..I remember at the KFC just now for dinner...Honestly, i really feel like going to break at that moment..i can feel my tears already arounf the corner to fall down..just that nearly but i managed to avoid it and don't want to let people see i'm that weak,,
Although for some part..this trip wasn't as i expected(cause my mission have fail..)but it is happy event..It always live in my memory, my computer, my blog..Just wish i wouldn't forget those event and memory...The 1 and 1/2 years of form 6 life have finally came to the end...i wish i can stay back at that time with them ...changing myself at lower 6 with more involve with them.but..back to the word..GROW and be mature now..
What a release after write down all the thing down...brain is so empty and enable myself to sleep better later..I'm now so much relutant to let me and my friends "go"..to become a pass tense not the future or present tense...But , it is something beyond what i can do or what i can try to do.This trip is full with memory...the voice and laughter we have make in the ship...the "knock" of my head to the van taxi..For me, it is more likely a family rather a end years school trip...REALLY!!.maybe cause it is my 1st time experience and there are some people i really wish will not get forgot by them (not girl and boy those love feel).It is 1st time i feel like the form 6 i study is like a big community rather than many group ..of course there are some people that i didn't familiar with..but..is is more likely a big , huge family...(and i want be small brother so can avoid doing heavy job..haha..)..
It feel so bad and sad cause need to leave them with a simple bye bye..feel so..relunctant ..It broke my heart and make me want to cry again now...but as i say..it is life..i need to grow and deal with it..learn to be grow and move on...GAMBATEH and WISH ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK TO THE BEST FAMILY I HAVE EVER , NEVER HAVE BEFORE..
This is how i feel last night...what i have write in paper to make my self empty and sleepy...tonight i need to fight to sleep lonely and the worst case is this Sunday cause my family go out play and i'm the only one in the house...No idea At night that day m i will be able to close my eyes or not..brainless..
Just now i go out with my mom for bank thing ...just thin back the lost of the people...my tears is pop out but it doesn't come out..thanks to the air-cond in the car by freeze my tears..haha...And i realize it is easy to be past and future tense but it is darn hard to be present tense..much more harder.like 1 compare to 1 million..
My life will not end today...i need to move and walk more..Wish i can have the friends like yesterday i have in the present day...AND i want to say..I THINK I REALLY FALL IN LOVE TO ALL OF YOU..NOT THAT BOY AND GIRL LOVE .BUT AS A FRIENDS AND THE HAPPY AND SWEET MOMENT WE HAVE EXPERIENCE AT THE PAST TIME..IT FEEL MUCH MORE HARD TO SAY BYE BYE TO ALL OF YOU..BUT FOR THOSE WHO HAVE READ MY BLOG...THANKS FOR WELCOME ME BE APART OF U LIFE BEFORE...THANKS Q(tears finally pop out..haha..)
Today is 11/12/2008..now is 11.59p,...Now i feel like i am in the pening laut situation====pening.~.~There are 1 word to describe my felling now------>confuse..haha ..sound weird..><
I still remember the process. the sweet memory, the funny moment, the desperated situation and etc. Me and my friends have gather in the Kajang Bus Station before go to Pudu..i have to wake up at 4.30 in the morning cause need to reach the bus station before 6 am...T have to say very thank you to Siew ling because fetch me(aligator.^^). But we have 1 "VIP" in our group===>Lee Chin Fai..haha..He reach the bus station at 6.15...but it doesn't matter cause all the thing is still follow the schedule..
We reach the Pudu bus station and meet the friends which live in Cheras and already waiting us at a nearby KFC...Total people 15..boy team:me , Yan Zheng,Chin Fai , Man Soon , Kee Sheng , Ah Teoh , MIng Han and Xiau Sa..girl team: Siew ling, Sze Chi , Ling Shi , Kah Wei(sifu) , Yoke Xin (sipak) , Mei Yan and Pei Seen..On the journey to the Pangkor perlabuhan...my friends have enjoy them by "gamble" and sleep..some of the friends have decided to take those funny sleeping pose..haha..and i enjoy the 4 hrs trip by listen to music and enjoy the view outside the window.. .i'm so happy that i sit in bus cause it such a long time i didn't use the bus already..
Once reach the Pangkor, we go to the Coral Bar...2 apartment for 15 people of us..
Overall, our Pangkor trip is full with the event that playing water , walk at the beach , feel the softness of the sand , the smell of the sea , the force of the winf , and many many else..and the important event is the "cor dai di" time for boy when have free time and the shopping hours for the girl~.~
Those girl are crazy for shopping..><..They can shopping in a same shop for 4 time and above...mad already they(they will kill me later...)But that is the "kung FU" of the girl inherit with which i or much of the male people cant learn that prefect..The 1st thing all guys do is swim in the sea and sand ball to throw the innosence guys like me...but i'm the one who keep their wallet and their "harta"..DONT TRY TO PLAY WITH ME....HOHOHOHHOH
The other thing will be i finally have touch the sea...Is is my 1st time to "swim" in the sea..and the water is so so so so "SIEN"... The poor thing is i get "bully" by the boy and girl..T.T..I think i will drown for one moment but lucky that i'm still survive and typing the blog now and here....haha
The 3 day 2 night trip at Pangkor ...I think i'm the most troublesome people..why?.I can easily lost my wallet , sandals , and my mobile phone..until a level where i'm not dare to keep the door key in my bag..>
The 1st day at night...i have a long night talk with Yan Zheng...cause that day at night...we all 14 people(beside xiau sa cause he need to sleep)have gather and talk ghost story...that make the girl afraid and have 3 boys decided to "protect" them by sleep at their room...but i don't know how much it work but for sure is Ah Teoh have turn to become their "father" after that night...and me and Yan Zheng have spend 2 hrs and 30 minute to talking session..
Then the 2nd day night ..we all decided to rent bicycle and take a "walk" in the Pangkor..An i have do a wrong thing by express my word with more rough feel..It make me feel bad cause i should be enjoy the process..~~~After the bicycle..we all have buy 4 bottle of beer and head to the beach that what have also done in the 1st night at Pangkor...Drinking the Beer and enjoy the song sing by all and the guitar-man----->JAY YAP(YAP MING HAN)...hohohoh.it is a sweet moment...All people sound enjoying the moment and then me and some friends "sleep" in the sand and enjoy the moon light..For a period of time me and kah wei (my sifu)..sleep at yan zheng body to enjoy and feel funny..haha.
1 amazing thing is ..when we back from cycling..the pedal of the yan Zheng bike have have broke and he have to run back for a far distant and and taking his bike as well.How well done is his "cell of sukan" in his body.~.~..then at 12 am..when back to the apartment and all gather in the girl room..playing card game and punish the loser..~.~..Yan Zheng is poor guys which like the only 1 guys get punish..of course me also kena .T.T.but is sound terrible for Yan Zheng ..seems like he want to get punish purposly. Are you,Yan Zheng? ...
Now my feel is more to sad and sleepy.. The happy moment have came to the end or more exactly is our trip and the friendship is started decrease..Although some have say FRIENDS FOREVER...i know what it means , how it work , and the % of success....like the Brighton have say in the Nanny show before..:"of course you will remember us for a while..after u have have u own children.You will start to decrease to see us and at last you will forget about us."..What the Brighton say is equal as what i think..Now or today..we might dare to say that we are friends forever...but the time and years came and go..are we still able to say the same thing like today?are will still remember each other?are we?
Although some play a joke that they will go to my house and "pon" me for fun...It sound funny and happy for me..but ,the feel is different ..the fell that we study at the school every day..and the feel we like just looking and pass away...it make me feel sad, forgotten , and like a puzzle lost a piece to finished it...It just something that it wouldn't as good as it was...
The 3day 2 night at Pangkor is nice and cool for me..With the Happy force and unexpected event..Now i can't sleep..Back to a room where i sleep ...it feel a bit lost..no more yellow light on the wall...no more people beside me to sleep ....It is what call as LIFE.i need to deal with it , understand it..I think i can suite myself again in this room again sooner or later but.i don't and can't accept the way i need to deal with it..KEK KOK WAH...WAKE UP AAA!!!!!YOU ARE NO LONGER A CHILDREN!!!!!..no more~~~~
Maybe it is due to it is the 1st time i have a trip with my friends with overnight..i need to grow up..no need to accept myself but make sure i live in the old type life style as soon as possible..don't stuck in the pass..
I don't know what to say more..Don't exactly what should i think..I remember at the KFC just now for dinner...Honestly, i really feel like going to break at that moment..i can feel my tears already arounf the corner to fall down..just that nearly but i managed to avoid it and don't want to let people see i'm that weak,,
Although for some part..this trip wasn't as i expected(cause my mission have fail..)but it is happy event..It always live in my memory, my computer, my blog..Just wish i wouldn't forget those event and memory...The 1 and 1/2 years of form 6 life have finally came to the end...i wish i can stay back at that time with them ...changing myself at lower 6 with more involve with them.but..back to the word..GROW and be mature now..
What a release after write down all the thing down...brain is so empty and enable myself to sleep better later..I'm now so much relutant to let me and my friends "go"..to become a pass tense not the future or present tense...But , it is something beyond what i can do or what i can try to do.This trip is full with memory...the voice and laughter we have make in the ship...the "knock" of my head to the van taxi..For me, it is more likely a family rather a end years school trip...REALLY!!.maybe cause it is my 1st time experience and there are some people i really wish will not get forgot by them (not girl and boy those love feel).It is 1st time i feel like the form 6 i study is like a big community rather than many group ..of course there are some people that i didn't familiar with..but..is is more likely a big , huge family...(and i want be small brother so can avoid doing heavy job..haha..)..
It feel so bad and sad cause need to leave them with a simple bye bye..feel so..relunctant ..It broke my heart and make me want to cry again now...but as i say..it is life..i need to grow and deal with it..learn to be grow and move on...GAMBATEH and WISH ALL THE BEST AND GOOD LUCK TO THE BEST FAMILY I HAVE EVER , NEVER HAVE BEFORE..
This is how i feel last night...what i have write in paper to make my self empty and sleepy...tonight i need to fight to sleep lonely and the worst case is this Sunday cause my family go out play and i'm the only one in the house...No idea At night that day m i will be able to close my eyes or not..brainless..
Just now i go out with my mom for bank thing ...just thin back the lost of the people...my tears is pop out but it doesn't come out..thanks to the air-cond in the car by freeze my tears..haha...And i realize it is easy to be past and future tense but it is darn hard to be present tense..much more harder.like 1 compare to 1 million..
My life will not end today...i need to move and walk more..Wish i can have the friends like yesterday i have in the present day...AND i want to say..I THINK I REALLY FALL IN LOVE TO ALL OF YOU..NOT THAT BOY AND GIRL LOVE .BUT AS A FRIENDS AND THE HAPPY AND SWEET MOMENT WE HAVE EXPERIENCE AT THE PAST TIME..IT FEEL MUCH MORE HARD TO SAY BYE BYE TO ALL OF YOU..BUT FOR THOSE WHO HAVE READ MY BLOG...THANKS FOR WELCOME ME BE APART OF U LIFE BEFORE...THANKS Q(tears finally pop out..haha..)
Thursday, December 4, 2008
everything but seems nothing...
Today is 5/12/2008....my STPM have finished yesterday...
At the beginning.i want to write about my STPM process...but.it seems bored for me and either..it is not a good memory ...so..haha..forget about STPM thing..~.~
Yesterday night..once after STPM...me and my friends go out to celebrate..and watch a movie call "twilight"...not too bad...but since it is love story..i think if i read the book will be better..haha...some more ...me and fion and jay yap make 'noise' at the cinema...so bad me..><..disturb other people~.~
About the movie...erm...the main character...i means the boy..wahaha..so handsome..just curious..why western people have big eyes ball..while eastern people is so small...furthermore..small eyes ball can cause high risk in having ill...~.~..
All is now back to the starting point again..as i imagine or i think..>
I'm feel a bit lost...Dunno why...somehow i think maybe it is cause by the movie yesterday..my brain is recall and recall the movie~.~..Don't know why or maybe is afraid to know the reason..><...(nonsense -me)...But...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAa.whatever.. Time can cure me..hohoho.><
Now is time to think which job i have to do and which course i'm going to study already~.~...just so hate to make a choice that can change my world...or scared to make a move...(T.T)...
Actually..i have many or some to write..but don't know why..just can't write down here or now..haha..want to take a break...so..today is until here ba...have to search my soul back...(-swt)
At the beginning.i want to write about my STPM process...but.it seems bored for me and either..it is not a good memory ...so..haha..forget about STPM thing..~.~
Yesterday night..once after STPM...me and my friends go out to celebrate..and watch a movie call "twilight"...not too bad...but since it is love story..i think if i read the book will be better..haha...some more ...me and fion and jay yap make 'noise' at the cinema...so bad me..><..disturb other people~.~
About the movie...erm...the main character...i means the boy..wahaha..so handsome..just curious..why western people have big eyes ball..while eastern people is so small...furthermore..small eyes ball can cause high risk in having ill...~.~..
All is now back to the starting point again..as i imagine or i think..>
I'm feel a bit lost...Dunno why...somehow i think maybe it is cause by the movie yesterday..my brain is recall and recall the movie~.~..Don't know why or maybe is afraid to know the reason..><...(nonsense -me)...But...AAAAAAAAAAAAAAa.whatever.. Time can cure me..hohoho.><
Now is time to think which job i have to do and which course i'm going to study already~.~...just so hate to make a choice that can change my world...or scared to make a move...(T.T)...
Actually..i have many or some to write..but don't know why..just can't write down here or now..haha..want to take a break...so..today is until here ba...have to search my soul back...(-swt)
Saturday, November 1, 2008
ALL on the edge..
Today is 1/11/2008...16 day more is my 1st day to sit for the STPM...Really shouldn't open computer but...now i'm lost my feel to study..So i take a chance to leave the study table and write blog then take a bath and study back..
All is going to the end but not my life(maybe)...Yesterday is my last time and day tuisyen at MR.POON....No more chance to heard he voice..good news?or bad?seems i'm so wanted to leave the room when tuisyen but now feel a bit lost and gone..
Friends all is doing the final "attack"..."fight until die" i think...STPM is a killer thing..kill people slowly but surely....yesterday i have a dream that i didn't take calculator for the exam..and...just wish it wont happen in the reality world..GOD PLEASE TAKE CARE ME..PLEASE~~~~
Sometimes i do recall my memory for my form 6 life...sweet, sour, spicy, and etc feel will show..haha..(did i really taste all?><)...Human shouldn't look backward..we have always believe there are a great future in front of us..but..
Nevermind...i will get use to it or i already prepare myself to face the situation..just wish it won't get worst than i though..
All will go to the good side...although sometimes it might hurt or sadness for me...i won't think of make a change or wish for something impossible...JUST believe all will be good...( i think u all won't understand what is the point i writing this blog..cause either me dunno.><)
Next Wednesday is the graduation day....KEK,don't think too much...kambateh ba..><(crazy already me^^.)
For form 6 friends:GAMBATEH AND DO THE BEST^^)
All is going to the end but not my life(maybe)...Yesterday is my last time and day tuisyen at MR.POON....No more chance to heard he voice..good news?or bad?seems i'm so wanted to leave the room when tuisyen but now feel a bit lost and gone..
Friends all is doing the final "attack"..."fight until die" i think...STPM is a killer thing..kill people slowly but surely....yesterday i have a dream that i didn't take calculator for the exam..and...just wish it wont happen in the reality world..GOD PLEASE TAKE CARE ME..PLEASE~~~~
Sometimes i do recall my memory for my form 6 life...sweet, sour, spicy, and etc feel will show..haha..(did i really taste all?><)...Human shouldn't look backward..we have always believe there are a great future in front of us..but..
Nevermind...i will get use to it or i already prepare myself to face the situation..just wish it won't get worst than i though..
All will go to the good side...although sometimes it might hurt or sadness for me...i won't think of make a change or wish for something impossible...JUST believe all will be good...( i think u all won't understand what is the point i writing this blog..cause either me dunno.><)
Next Wednesday is the graduation day....KEK,don't think too much...kambateh ba..><(crazy already me^^.)
For form 6 friends:GAMBATEH AND DO THE BEST^^)
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
NOthing special~~~~
Today is 22/10/2208...more and more close to STPM..good signal or bad signal?><..
Skipping school seems to me a trend to me and my friends..What a good student we are..!!!!HAHA....
Such a long time did'nt blog already..then decided to online and blog then leave..^^.. So far so bad...my result is not good but got improve..just not enough,,either still have a long journey to go.. T_T..
Anything happen recently?..erm,still same perhaps..study and the time walk away..~~~~
Now really nothing to say and think...cause i have ask my brain to blok and prevent from thinking nonsense thing....must memorize all the formula and those reaction..aikz..such a poor life..haha..
This few day i have ask my friends what will make them to choose the course they will study in university or future...is because the interested or the salary?..so far..all give the answer is interested..and my answer is salary..haha.$$$$$$ is power and nothing but everything..><
The reason i choose salary cause i think interest can "dipupuk"..therefore i think salary is the major reason i will consider when i can study in the university..
Ia getting near and near to the graduation day..more near than the STPM date..nonsense..^^..Now it is really the very last minute and hours left for me and see my friends often and easy??haha..All will back to initial when the time reach..that what i sense..i think , ...
Although i will feel bad and unsafe (perhaps)..but it is the rule of living..me just have to deal with it..tears might flow in the heart but wont let it out from eyes... Cause ..haha..just don't want to destroyed my image^^..
Already 12.22pm..got to study already...wish me and all my friends all the best^^
P/S:sek cheng friends..Sure i didn't forget u^^haha..gambateh 1st..now cant find u to chat><
Skipping school seems to me a trend to me and my friends..What a good student we are..!!!!HAHA....
Such a long time did'nt blog already..then decided to online and blog then leave..^^.. So far so bad...my result is not good but got improve..just not enough,,either still have a long journey to go.. T_T..
Anything happen recently?..erm,still same perhaps..study and the time walk away..~~~~
Now really nothing to say and think...cause i have ask my brain to blok and prevent from thinking nonsense thing....must memorize all the formula and those reaction..aikz..such a poor life..haha..
This few day i have ask my friends what will make them to choose the course they will study in university or future...is because the interested or the salary?..so far..all give the answer is interested..and my answer is salary..haha.$$$$$$ is power and nothing but everything..><
The reason i choose salary cause i think interest can "dipupuk"..therefore i think salary is the major reason i will consider when i can study in the university..
Ia getting near and near to the graduation day..more near than the STPM date..nonsense..^^..Now it is really the very last minute and hours left for me and see my friends often and easy??haha..All will back to initial when the time reach..that what i sense..i think , ...
Although i will feel bad and unsafe (perhaps)..but it is the rule of living..me just have to deal with it..tears might flow in the heart but wont let it out from eyes... Cause ..haha..just don't want to destroyed my image^^..
Already 12.22pm..got to study already...wish me and all my friends all the best^^
P/S:sek cheng friends..Sure i didn't forget u^^haha..gambateh 1st..now cant find u to chat><
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Hari RAya..
Today is 1/10/08...a new month for me and getting near and near to STPM..One more thing is HAppy Hari Raya to all malay..(although i'm prejedis to some malay,but only some><)
Today i have a dinner with my mom and brother at cow boy..Finally have fullfill my appetiecte for eat stik..But it have happen good thing and bad thing..The bad thing is when we eat almost finished , suddenly it start rain..AIkz..Godd news is, the Boss court wrong money that make me save 20 dollar..haha(>.<)i'm a bad customer..haha
ON the way home,i have a quarrel with my mother..not a big fight but just express something but is unwelcome for her..SO..what to do.I do know the consequence,do i? Trouble will find u no matter where you go and who are you..
Trouble, sad event , unwanted thing..all just happen without our imagination and in the field where we or i can control...sometimes, a word of tired might not enough to describe the situation where i need to face..
IF i didn't say anything at that time, now me and my mom wont in argue..I feel quite weird about one thing..There are one philosophy which state that "human life is like a show"..but why i'm the actor of this show didn't see and read the script??and why no one ask for my permission that i want to accepet this movie or not?
Just..thinking about this nonsense thing and hopless thing wont help me find anyway out or make me happy back..isn't?
My mom just now say that the way i use to compare me and my brother is not true.. Erm, somehow i need to admit it..like my bro have to work to my father while i no need..and i'm asking for more every time..The people who ask me to always make a compare between people is no other but my mother..
I still remember when i'm study in primary school, my mother use to compare my result with my friends result..sad case?if only you have do this job from primary until form 5...1 word---stun is the prefect word to describe..I'm living in a world which need to survive by compareing each other..Now , my mom say i'm wrong..no idea what is the word correct that means to her.
Today i should go to swim and exercise with my friends..which i really wish and despareted to go..haha..too bombastik?a bit maybe..><..Anyway the point is i didnt go for 2 reason..the major reason i think i cant write at here since my blog is not private after all..but the 2nd reason is because my mom say i mudah otot kejang, so i'm not allowed to go.
What to do,i'm not enough power to say or demand i want go..SO just now, i say that i didn't go now cause i need a money suppleyer..when i'm done and can earn money i won't listen to those order that sound nonsense for me..i know that a protect me and consern about my safety but isn't that u hae my a sense of thinking and understanding and support my decicion?
My bro have back..this blog is consider not finished..no idea i will continue write or maybe i will just leave it behind..~~~
EVERY BODY PLEASE BE HAPPPY>>HAPPY AND LOUGH AS MUCH AS U CAN..
P/s:DONT ASK FOR MORE KEK KOK WAH....~~
Today i have a dinner with my mom and brother at cow boy..Finally have fullfill my appetiecte for eat stik..But it have happen good thing and bad thing..The bad thing is when we eat almost finished , suddenly it start rain..AIkz..Godd news is, the Boss court wrong money that make me save 20 dollar..haha(>.<)i'm a bad customer..haha
ON the way home,i have a quarrel with my mother..not a big fight but just express something but is unwelcome for her..SO..what to do.I do know the consequence,do i? Trouble will find u no matter where you go and who are you..
Trouble, sad event , unwanted thing..all just happen without our imagination and in the field where we or i can control...sometimes, a word of tired might not enough to describe the situation where i need to face..
IF i didn't say anything at that time, now me and my mom wont in argue..I feel quite weird about one thing..There are one philosophy which state that "human life is like a show"..but why i'm the actor of this show didn't see and read the script??and why no one ask for my permission that i want to accepet this movie or not?
Just..thinking about this nonsense thing and hopless thing wont help me find anyway out or make me happy back..isn't?
My mom just now say that the way i use to compare me and my brother is not true.. Erm, somehow i need to admit it..like my bro have to work to my father while i no need..and i'm asking for more every time..The people who ask me to always make a compare between people is no other but my mother..
I still remember when i'm study in primary school, my mother use to compare my result with my friends result..sad case?if only you have do this job from primary until form 5...1 word---stun is the prefect word to describe..I'm living in a world which need to survive by compareing each other..Now , my mom say i'm wrong..no idea what is the word correct that means to her.
Today i should go to swim and exercise with my friends..which i really wish and despareted to go..haha..too bombastik?a bit maybe..><..Anyway the point is i didnt go for 2 reason..the major reason i think i cant write at here since my blog is not private after all..but the 2nd reason is because my mom say i mudah otot kejang, so i'm not allowed to go.
What to do,i'm not enough power to say or demand i want go..SO just now, i say that i didn't go now cause i need a money suppleyer..when i'm done and can earn money i won't listen to those order that sound nonsense for me..i know that a protect me and consern about my safety but isn't that u hae my a sense of thinking and understanding and support my decicion?
My bro have back..this blog is consider not finished..no idea i will continue write or maybe i will just leave it behind..~~~
EVERY BODY PLEASE BE HAPPPY>>HAPPY AND LOUGH AS MUCH AS U CAN..
P/s:DONT ASK FOR MORE KEK KOK WAH....~~
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Bonding brain >.<
Today is 29/9/2008..now is 2.38pm.
Today same like yesterday...normal life..wake up at 6.40 am cause have tuisyen and go to MCD to celebrate one of my friends birthday----->Cheah Pei Seen..
Somehow today i think i'm in the down mood..why?perhaps something happen that make me think or reconsider many thing..Every ppl know the means of leaving and gathering.. The happiest is the gathering and the sadness is leaving..i'm talking nonsense here..
NOw i listening to one of the AERON MOK song...lyrics like this.:"maybe i should give up then only i can near to u , maybe i didnt see u again then only u will remember me..~~"..This song somehow have describe my feel now...
Now i'm down cause i too stuborn to hold something..let it go might be a good way for me..see far and have new experience...i will not say why i down here cause it doesnt matter and for sure it is not because the girl and me problem...Just,i feel like i'm and will get forget for people around me..
I know i'm just only a guest to the earth,sooner or later i will leave this place.. ash to ash dust to dust..Maybe i hope i have change in this 2 years ,i means the life i study on form 6..actually i dont dare to show my despeated feel in the form 6 friends cause i scared later they will think bukan bukan again..
When something have hapen beyond our control..i dont know,just feel like not safe more?!!But every thing happen with surprices that make our life and world full with happy,sad, or many feel..I'm not dislike it but ..i dont know..i'm confuse..perhaps someone have use confuse ray on me..
Now my brain is stil all "bond" together..the tired feel return...As i of my friends say..sometimes alone is a nice thing..YA,i cant delined it...i love alone but i hate been forget and lonely..lonely feel also came with alone but i cant control to accpet alone only while kick away the lonely..><
Alone~~~i have do some thing by myself...alone!!!stay in home while whole family go out for play , one people go to take a dinner...one people do this do that...if u ask me what is the problem.?i dont know...but if u ask would u like someone join me..the answer will be yes(sometimes)..i'm not looking for a girl friends ..that someone can be make and female but i hope that someone can chat with me..
SOmetimes...i wonder how is my life when i'm old...I have see people about 30~40 years old having lunch alone..somehow, i feel it is weird and lonely..i have imagine that if i day later u have to pass the life like them,how am i turn to?After all , i'm just too afraid too leave behind..sometimes i say i didnt mind.but actually i do mind(sometimes)..dont know my friends have sense so or not?
I have say that i'm prefect lier,i wish that they cant sense it..then i can still be the prefect imej for them...
THat all for todayi think, already 3.03..waa..i use 30 min to finsihed 1 blog..hehe..
I will be happy^^(term and condition:try)
Today same like yesterday...normal life..wake up at 6.40 am cause have tuisyen and go to MCD to celebrate one of my friends birthday----->Cheah Pei Seen..
Somehow today i think i'm in the down mood..why?perhaps something happen that make me think or reconsider many thing..Every ppl know the means of leaving and gathering.. The happiest is the gathering and the sadness is leaving..i'm talking nonsense here..
NOw i listening to one of the AERON MOK song...lyrics like this.:"maybe i should give up then only i can near to u , maybe i didnt see u again then only u will remember me..~~"..This song somehow have describe my feel now...
Now i'm down cause i too stuborn to hold something..let it go might be a good way for me..see far and have new experience...i will not say why i down here cause it doesnt matter and for sure it is not because the girl and me problem...Just,i feel like i'm and will get forget for people around me..
I know i'm just only a guest to the earth,sooner or later i will leave this place.. ash to ash dust to dust..Maybe i hope i have change in this 2 years ,i means the life i study on form 6..actually i dont dare to show my despeated feel in the form 6 friends cause i scared later they will think bukan bukan again..
When something have hapen beyond our control..i dont know,just feel like not safe more?!!But every thing happen with surprices that make our life and world full with happy,sad, or many feel..I'm not dislike it but ..i dont know..i'm confuse..perhaps someone have use confuse ray on me..
Now my brain is stil all "bond" together..the tired feel return...As i of my friends say..sometimes alone is a nice thing..YA,i cant delined it...i love alone but i hate been forget and lonely..lonely feel also came with alone but i cant control to accpet alone only while kick away the lonely..><
Alone~~~i have do some thing by myself...alone!!!stay in home while whole family go out for play , one people go to take a dinner...one people do this do that...if u ask me what is the problem.?i dont know...but if u ask would u like someone join me..the answer will be yes(sometimes)..i'm not looking for a girl friends ..that someone can be make and female but i hope that someone can chat with me..
SOmetimes...i wonder how is my life when i'm old...I have see people about 30~40 years old having lunch alone..somehow, i feel it is weird and lonely..i have imagine that if i day later u have to pass the life like them,how am i turn to?After all , i'm just too afraid too leave behind..sometimes i say i didnt mind.but actually i do mind(sometimes)..dont know my friends have sense so or not?
I have say that i'm prefect lier,i wish that they cant sense it..then i can still be the prefect imej for them...
THat all for todayi think, already 3.03..waa..i use 30 min to finsihed 1 blog..hehe..
I will be happy^^(term and condition:try)
A normal day~~~
Today is 28/9/2008..now is 5.49pm.
Finally my trial exam have over and waiting for the STPM T_T..put aside the sad thing 1st..let see what happy event have happen..Start from today,just finished take bath , wash my car , have make some exercise..but only jump about 500 time..I have gone my energy..too bad.(SAD)
Yesterday me and my friends which is siew ling , yan zheng , man soon , and sze chi went to midvalley to buy present for the birthday boy------>chin fai.hehe..Having a dinner celebration with 14 ppl in cheras-calabria..Although that is not the place i prefer but something have happen because my word so i cant do anything...
Erm,actually..i dont have any mood recently or more accurate is i didn't gain any new philosophy..><...just a normal person being a normal life...not much to say or feel...just my friends yan zheng seems like down...erm, according to the research me and my friends have done on him,the result is he having pressure cause exam and some personnel problem where we cant invistigate and get the answer..haha
Wish that he can faster 'cure' from the pressure..
I think i will going to say how am i look about the birthday boy--->Lee Chin Fai.. or chinny..haha..About him,let me recall back my memory..i think i know or i see him since primary school..start talking or chat is when we 2 also form 6 and in same class..(>.<)According to the information i have is we tuisyen in a same place when we are primary school but i don't remember..hehe..SO bad me..
He is also a clever student in the class...like siew ling and yan zheng..i'm excepter
T_T..He physcal apperance is tall , having hair stye like a 1980 person..cause he just wake up as he give the reason why he hair big..haha..About mentally, i think he is kayu..haha..cause he didnt show his expression that make me quite understand-less about him..
About me and he,erm..i think is the joke that i have make on him..dunno he forgive me already or still angry with me..cause i have a playfull hearth then play he and siew ling together that make me feel guilty and sorry to him...
Once i always play joke on him and started to decrease to 1 power to 0..Cause i think i have really make him mad and always i think i have play over the safety line.
Really nothing to say ..cause..nothing..
Just want to end my blog with a wish that god will bless him to get the good result as he want in the STPM and hope that yan zheng will be ok back.
Time end:6.11.1 pm
PSPS...now is 6.30..suddenly remember something have to write...I DIDNT FALL IN LOVE WITH ANY GIRL NOW!!!!!!I DIDNT AND DONT WANT FALL IN LOVE to anyone..plz..let me go..
You all senser have problem...She is not my cup of tea and i wont have any tea in this life..!!!!forgive me if i say too rude but that how am i feel at that time not now...so..just let me go...walk away..2 month left only...let me feel that all the moment i in form 6 is happy memory not sad..(although many bad thing have appen already also)..><
Finally my trial exam have over and waiting for the STPM T_T..put aside the sad thing 1st..let see what happy event have happen..Start from today,just finished take bath , wash my car , have make some exercise..but only jump about 500 time..I have gone my energy..too bad.(SAD)
Yesterday me and my friends which is siew ling , yan zheng , man soon , and sze chi went to midvalley to buy present for the birthday boy------>chin fai.hehe..Having a dinner celebration with 14 ppl in cheras-calabria..Although that is not the place i prefer but something have happen because my word so i cant do anything...
Erm,actually..i dont have any mood recently or more accurate is i didn't gain any new philosophy..><...just a normal person being a normal life...not much to say or feel...just my friends yan zheng seems like down...erm, according to the research me and my friends have done on him,the result is he having pressure cause exam and some personnel problem where we cant invistigate and get the answer..haha
Wish that he can faster 'cure' from the pressure..
I think i will going to say how am i look about the birthday boy--->Lee Chin Fai.. or chinny..haha..About him,let me recall back my memory..i think i know or i see him since primary school..start talking or chat is when we 2 also form 6 and in same class..(>.<)According to the information i have is we tuisyen in a same place when we are primary school but i don't remember..hehe..SO bad me..
He is also a clever student in the class...like siew ling and yan zheng..i'm excepter
T_T..He physcal apperance is tall , having hair stye like a 1980 person..cause he just wake up as he give the reason why he hair big..haha..About mentally, i think he is kayu..haha..cause he didnt show his expression that make me quite understand-less about him..
About me and he,erm..i think is the joke that i have make on him..dunno he forgive me already or still angry with me..cause i have a playfull hearth then play he and siew ling together that make me feel guilty and sorry to him...
Once i always play joke on him and started to decrease to 1 power to 0..Cause i think i have really make him mad and always i think i have play over the safety line.
Really nothing to say ..cause..nothing..
Just want to end my blog with a wish that god will bless him to get the good result as he want in the STPM and hope that yan zheng will be ok back.
Time end:6.11.1 pm
PSPS...now is 6.30..suddenly remember something have to write...I DIDNT FALL IN LOVE WITH ANY GIRL NOW!!!!!!I DIDNT AND DONT WANT FALL IN LOVE to anyone..plz..let me go..
You all senser have problem...She is not my cup of tea and i wont have any tea in this life..!!!!forgive me if i say too rude but that how am i feel at that time not now...so..just let me go...walk away..2 month left only...let me feel that all the moment i in form 6 is happy memory not sad..(although many bad thing have appen already also)..><
Friday, September 19, 2008
DAY OF SAD AND DOWN MODE....
Today is 19/9..now is 10.pm.just back from physics tuisyen.
Today,i'm in the down mode..many unwanted and unwishes thing happen..
My car have send to shop to repair and can get back by 2moro...and need RM450...so expensive...Since my parents didn't scold me but i just don't know why i'm still so down...to act for them to see? HOnestly,i don't know..maybe is and maybe not...But when know that the repair fix is cost Rm450..it almost 1 week of the money the my father earn..
Although i didn't go out to work with my father work as many as my brother do..but i know that my father work is quite a tough work..He need to use energy and etc to earn the money..but i just use 1 week of the money he earn just in 1 repair car work.
SOmemore,i just get my car not more than 1 years and i had make a such huge mistake and destroyed..somehow my heart not forgive myself..just keep blame me..why didn't watch carefull or why didn't take other safe road..WHY???!!!!!
2nd thing that make me in down mode cause 1 of my form 6 friends will leave~~~~..the leave in here means that she going oversea to study...and might not join us for the end years pangkor trip..sad..A feel that all will leave soon and i will leave behind all this..But,i'm happy if she study oversea 2..can be proud for her i guest?
About her,erm...the 1st thing i know is got 4 girl join our class and 3 of them is came from convent..and she is one of them---Lee Siew Ling...My friends tell me that she is so beautiful..haha..at first i didn't see so..(>.<)..and my friends is female. somemore i think she is the ugly in our class that time(sorry a,siew ling,haha)
But with the help of time,after a period of knowing each other..she is a nice person..somemore she is a playfull person although she keep say that se is silent student in converm..now i have so many yellow thing in my head also "help" by her..>.< ..i'm so good in blaming people..Weeee~~~~~
About she..Fall in love to someone clever..and she is so yellow..always look for muscle guys..no idea how she can survive in the convent cause she can't see boy at there..
And she is helpfull for me cause when i still can't drive yet she is the one and part of the person who drive me go to tuisyen , play and "wet"..haha..then when i have my car is my pay back time to her...>.<..She gave me the same feeling with YAn zheng..funny, cherrup the class , be the one to let us gossip..haha..and she is the one i didn't see her angry before..
Wish that she can fly to the place she want to go and have her dream husband in the future...wish that she will tell me when is her flight..i want go to see her cry..haha.( i think i will cry 2..so, siew ling if u see this blog ,tell me when is u flight then we can cry together in the airplane....can feel and imagine what will happen after u leave..but..old word,human will change..we will and need to meet out faith..)
KEK KOK WAH>.<..u also be happy back soon ba^^
Today,i'm in the down mode..many unwanted and unwishes thing happen..
My car have send to shop to repair and can get back by 2moro...and need RM450...so expensive...Since my parents didn't scold me but i just don't know why i'm still so down...to act for them to see? HOnestly,i don't know..maybe is and maybe not...But when know that the repair fix is cost Rm450..it almost 1 week of the money the my father earn..
Although i didn't go out to work with my father work as many as my brother do..but i know that my father work is quite a tough work..He need to use energy and etc to earn the money..but i just use 1 week of the money he earn just in 1 repair car work.
SOmemore,i just get my car not more than 1 years and i had make a such huge mistake and destroyed..somehow my heart not forgive myself..just keep blame me..why didn't watch carefull or why didn't take other safe road..WHY???!!!!!
2nd thing that make me in down mode cause 1 of my form 6 friends will leave~~~~..the leave in here means that she going oversea to study...and might not join us for the end years pangkor trip..sad..A feel that all will leave soon and i will leave behind all this..But,i'm happy if she study oversea 2..can be proud for her i guest?
About her,erm...the 1st thing i know is got 4 girl join our class and 3 of them is came from convent..and she is one of them---Lee Siew Ling...My friends tell me that she is so beautiful..haha..at first i didn't see so..(>.<)..and my friends is female. somemore i think she is the ugly in our class that time(sorry a,siew ling,haha)
But with the help of time,after a period of knowing each other..she is a nice person..somemore she is a playfull person although she keep say that se is silent student in converm..now i have so many yellow thing in my head also "help" by her..>.< ..i'm so good in blaming people..Weeee~~~~~
About she..Fall in love to someone clever..and she is so yellow..always look for muscle guys..no idea how she can survive in the convent cause she can't see boy at there..
And she is helpfull for me cause when i still can't drive yet she is the one and part of the person who drive me go to tuisyen , play and "wet"..haha..then when i have my car is my pay back time to her...>.<..She gave me the same feeling with YAn zheng..funny, cherrup the class , be the one to let us gossip..haha..and she is the one i didn't see her angry before..
Wish that she can fly to the place she want to go and have her dream husband in the future...wish that she will tell me when is her flight..i want go to see her cry..haha.( i think i will cry 2..so, siew ling if u see this blog ,tell me when is u flight then we can cry together in the airplane....can feel and imagine what will happen after u leave..but..old word,human will change..we will and need to meet out faith..)
KEK KOK WAH>.<..u also be happy back soon ba^^
Thursday, September 18, 2008
BAD DAY!!!STORM???
Today is 18/9...finished my physics paper 2..aikz..no matter how night am i study..the question stil i cant get the correct..no in the correct orientation..><
Today start with curious..cause after the salah faham and the aplogy..then is the 1st day to see my frends react...erm,.i think he seems like abit different at 1st..i means when we at the hall.he not so talkactive compare to last time..maybe not enough sleep cause have to study physics...
Then when in the class.aikz,can't express..cause the classroom is so silent..perhaps all wish to do the best shot fot the physics..Anyway,he can say got talk after toilet trip i guest..maybe now for me is a sensitive time..so he and other reaction will be ..how to say?ya..connected..But..wish he can be really happy and show the smile(evil or angel as soon as possible).
Me and my friends decided to go eat sup pedas at SG.CHUA cause there are not enough space to eat at ABC..then, my bad luck is start..i have a car crash..>< KANASAI...all because i'm skilless and the taxi fault..how can he/she park his/her taxi in there..!!!!that's not a place to park..anyway,that is malaysia driver culture and tradition..
Then i have to surrender to my parents..call my mom and be a mangsa in this tragetic(and i'm really a mangsa)..but the total price to fix back my door is 450..somemore cause myvi steel is bad quality..if it need use mangkat on in..then after a period of time it will show black dot..so hurt!!!!!!then i ask my parents how much it cost for a new door..haha..maybe i can change new door if it is not expensive..
But now..damn down e..!!!no energy to study i guest..(lazy..hehe)..just wish it can faster "walk" away..T_T..
Already 9.30pm..i guest i need study and stop...wish my spirit back~~~~~~~
Today start with curious..cause after the salah faham and the aplogy..then is the 1st day to see my frends react...erm,.i think he seems like abit different at 1st..i means when we at the hall.he not so talkactive compare to last time..maybe not enough sleep cause have to study physics...
Then when in the class.aikz,can't express..cause the classroom is so silent..perhaps all wish to do the best shot fot the physics..Anyway,he can say got talk after toilet trip i guest..maybe now for me is a sensitive time..so he and other reaction will be ..how to say?ya..connected..But..wish he can be really happy and show the smile(evil or angel as soon as possible).
Me and my friends decided to go eat sup pedas at SG.CHUA cause there are not enough space to eat at ABC..then, my bad luck is start..i have a car crash..>< KANASAI...all because i'm skilless and the taxi fault..how can he/she park his/her taxi in there..!!!!that's not a place to park..anyway,that is malaysia driver culture and tradition..
Then i have to surrender to my parents..call my mom and be a mangsa in this tragetic(and i'm really a mangsa)..but the total price to fix back my door is 450..somemore cause myvi steel is bad quality..if it need use mangkat on in..then after a period of time it will show black dot..so hurt!!!!!!then i ask my parents how much it cost for a new door..haha..maybe i can change new door if it is not expensive..
But now..damn down e..!!!no energy to study i guest..(lazy..hehe)..just wish it can faster "walk" away..T_T..
Already 9.30pm..i guest i need study and stop...wish my spirit back~~~~~~~
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Sorry to MY friends...Sorry
Today is 17/9,now is 12.04 am..just finished watched Ghost whispers and Las Veges... The main chracter in the Las veges have such a good body figure...aikz,if i have such a good body figure i no need so worry about the Pangkor trip already..haha
The main purpose i wrte the blog is because want to say sorry to someone i have hurt yesterday..my friends-------Wong Yan Zheng..Just now when read his blog only found out the reason he feel sad today at school...so bad me...The reason he is unhappy cause me and other friends play a fool on him and make him feel uncomfortable...
Erm,some how i can understand his situation when he say he need to lough in front of us altough he not feeling ok with the way we talk..and he express himself as a clown..what can i say is just sorry and very sorry but no other...
I have no idea it might hurt him and make him uncomfortable ...cause he always lough like mad with us and play joke with us..About him..i remember the 1st time we meet..is in the lower6 "gathering"..he and his friends are come from other school which is not yu hua..when we introduce ourself..i though their name is funny..cause he say my name is wong yan zheng..我人精 turn to the word 我是人精is the word i heard..haha
I want to say that i'm not a good student in the class and the form 6..is physics class need to category in to lame class and good class i will put into the lame class..><..so,it is quite a miracle for me that i will or can be friends with him and other excellent student..
He is someone i think is quite hardworking(doing maths)..exam result not bad..(wish he get the mark that he always want)..kaunseler for me(haha..i'm someone have mentally problem)..and my lost belly drum teacher..T_Y..such a bad news for him having a lazy “student” like like me..
Now when want to write about him, i wonder why me and other friends like to play about him.we help him "bath" when we go toilet and play match-maker on him with other girl..somehow..i think he be the item for us to play..but..all came under one reason cause he is just too nice（easy to bully..WAKAKA)
Today is the 1st day i think i see he show unhappy mode..As a friends..i just wish i already know what is the problem at that moment..but.i'm such a failer to friendship..Sometimes i unpurposly hurt friends with out i know..Dam....
He is the part if bring the happyness to our class...sending us song...talking nonsense..and etc..not here to bombastic him and promote him to you but maybe this is how i feel now and how sorry i am for making him having a unhappy event in 16/9/2008..
I just want to say sorry to him again...Wish that he always happy and show his kiling smile to all of us(evil smile also)..ANd i swear i wont hurt u(try mybest) and i wont say u about moon again...SORYY AND HAPPY FOREVER..V-POWER on u for the exam..dun worry the money..i help u pay..haha
The main purpose i wrte the blog is because want to say sorry to someone i have hurt yesterday..my friends-------Wong Yan Zheng..Just now when read his blog only found out the reason he feel sad today at school...so bad me...The reason he is unhappy cause me and other friends play a fool on him and make him feel uncomfortable...
Erm,some how i can understand his situation when he say he need to lough in front of us altough he not feeling ok with the way we talk..and he express himself as a clown..what can i say is just sorry and very sorry but no other...
I have no idea it might hurt him and make him uncomfortable ...cause he always lough like mad with us and play joke with us..About him..i remember the 1st time we meet..is in the lower6 "gathering"..he and his friends are come from other school which is not yu hua..when we introduce ourself..i though their name is funny..cause he say my name is wong yan zheng..我人精 turn to the word 我是人精is the word i heard..haha
I want to say that i'm not a good student in the class and the form 6..is physics class need to category in to lame class and good class i will put into the lame class..><..so,it is quite a miracle for me that i will or can be friends with him and other excellent student..
He is someone i think is quite hardworking(doing maths)..exam result not bad..(wish he get the mark that he always want)..kaunseler for me(haha..i'm someone have mentally problem)..and my lost belly drum teacher..T_Y..such a bad news for him having a lazy “student” like like me..
Now when want to write about him, i wonder why me and other friends like to play about him.we help him "bath" when we go toilet and play match-maker on him with other girl..somehow..i think he be the item for us to play..but..all came under one reason cause he is just too nice（easy to bully..WAKAKA)
Today is the 1st day i think i see he show unhappy mode..As a friends..i just wish i already know what is the problem at that moment..but.i'm such a failer to friendship..Sometimes i unpurposly hurt friends with out i know..Dam....
He is the part if bring the happyness to our class...sending us song...talking nonsense..and etc..not here to bombastic him and promote him to you but maybe this is how i feel now and how sorry i am for making him having a unhappy event in 16/9/2008..
I just want to say sorry to him again...Wish that he always happy and show his kiling smile to all of us(evil smile also)..ANd i swear i wont hurt u(try mybest) and i wont say u about moon again...SORYY AND HAPPY FOREVER..V-POWER on u for the exam..dun worry the money..i help u pay..haha
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